I'm not thinking of drinking Bug -- that won't solve anything and it will make things in my world worse than they are now (if that's possible LOL). It's just doing the right thing -- being a good person, trying to be a better person than the day before, etc. I'm always honest and I've always helped those around me who are worse off than me. But it's the idea of seeking help financially and being told there isn't anything we can do for you -- after 35 years of putting into the system where people healthier than myself have taken advantage of a "free lunch". Is it my race, that I'm a single woman alone with no children, my age? It's quite depressing and scary.