Speak to me...do you hear me
Look at me, really look at me
Tell me dear what do you see
Do you see my reflection as i do
Do you see the fool that i see
The fool that believed you
Believed in you...completely
Yes go ahead speak your mind
And in your words what do you hope i find
Another believable lie?
Another day has faded away
Another day left unsaid
Another day you're in my head
Look listen....see
I've had enough
Just let me be

I see the fire in your eyes
Or is it just a clever disguise
A hint of flame
When you say my name
Is it love or just a game
I've opened up a time or two
Completely opened my heart to you
All i got in return.....
Was quiet nothingness
Oh how my heart still yearns
And now breaks a little
Now filled with shame
To have let you pull me
Into your game.....
Oh what a crying shame

I've been shreddin paprer for the last 2 hours
I had ld bills from 1998...OMG

I even found all my pay stubs from every job ive had since high school....shredded it all!

I actually have a couple people i clean for every other week.

I've spent all day since this morning cleaning out my bedroom.
Goin thru old papers and such,gettin rid of stuff.
I've been spring cleanin my whole house the past couple weeks.

Yea i know its not spring yet, i just get in that mode and once i start i cant stop...lol

The night closes in all around her
Wind whips wickedly chills her to the bone
No stars shine for her this winters eve
In the slight moon light she can barely see
Running for home...
Bracing herself against the icy night
Running for home...
Where the arms of her lover will hold her tight
The faster she runs
The darker the night becomes
As the cold winter air fills her lungs
Just out of breath as she reaches the steps
Her body so tired aching to break
Willing herself to go on
With each step she takes
As she reaches the top she dare not stop
Opening the door this time shes sure
And her lover greets her....
With a love so warm and pure
He's captured her heart
She had once hidden so well
Afraid of love afraid to fall
Afraid to give completely her all
His love so pure
Her heart so sure
She's made it through her icy blues

absolutely not, no way!

Freeport pa

I karate chopped a baseball bat cuz thats how i roll

Under a blue cloudless sky
Standing in the heat of the day
Turning behind me
I see lying beside me
Such a twisted melted mess
The best of the worst of me
What is left of the rest
Now hat i've set me free
Free of the hurt
Free of the pain
No longer crying when the rain falls
No longer screaming banging on walls
What is left of the rest
A new day...another breath

Let me paint you a picture
Full of verbal wonder
crashing over you like thunder
And my words leap off the page
Some bloom with love
While others strike with rage
And the colors run together
Streaked and wet from stormy weather
When clouds collide within my mind
Turn the page and leave the rage
And now you run into love
Colorful and in full bloom
Painted from the heart
My verbal picture
Painted from the heart
Let me paint you a picture
Full of verbal wonder

thank-you everyone for reading and for your kind comments!

The greatest man i never knew by reba

It makes me think about my dad, he died when i was just one and i never knew him. Have no memories of him.

I cry like a baby everytime i hear it

What hurts the most by rascal flatts
Anymore by travis tritt

Well it looks like it over
We've come to the end of our road
Tell me...is it really over
Theres so much left untold
Shouild we go on pretending
Or just let it all unfold
All i wanted was your love to hold
Tell me how did it all grow old
All you needed was love to free you
Tell me how to let us go
All i ever wanted was for you to be you
So here we are..the end of the line
Tell me...how do we say goodbye
Both holding onto something
That long ago died
Lets stop pretending and start the ending

My boyfriend ryan and i have only been dating since the end of sept, and he just told me he bought my kids gifts for christmas.
I did not expect that.

Thank you everyone for reading and your heartfelt comments

Go ahead and have your fun
Go on out, go on the run
Burn your candle at both ends
I think you know where this will end
Just go on out that door
No i wont be walkin the floor
Go ahead and have your fun
When you get home you will find
You're all alone
You burned your candle at both ends
Now the flame has died
And you will find.....
Nothing but a melted mess
Of what once was.....
Our love

12/22/08
This isnt about anyone just came to me

This time of year
Thanksgiving and christmas
Brings to home
Everything i so dearly miss
Everything i never had...
Oh yes i did but can't recall
Any of it at all
For that was 35 years ago
And i was just so small
This time of year...
A time for family
A time for cheer
This time of year....every year
I shed oh so many tears
I so long for what i know
Could never be
To have you here again with me
Daddy
Sitting here looking at pictures of you
Pictures of us
Mom ..you..brother and me
Way back when a beautiful family
Not a day goes by
That i dont ask why
You were taken from my life

wake up in a cold sweat yet again
Eyes open slowly...wonder if only
If only you were here
You could calm me
Baby it seems to me
This is right where you should be
Right here with me
To have you here in my arms
Your sweet kisses
And that smile that charms
Your soft touch i need so much
Your arms around me as we sleep sweetly
No more nights of empty dreaming