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Unattended Garden


as the rain outside begins to fade
the sun peaks out around the shade
iris dance in the winds of may
now it’s early june and the lilies play

out of the shade…

and i’m all alone in the garden we planned
watching the soil we groomed turn to sand
weeds choking out every breath i take
another lesson at the hands of fate

in the hands of fate

darkness falls - on me
through it all - i see

your pretty face
and i’m gonna try
not to
miss you

so i call your name but, it’s just in vein
i tried to love you but, it’s just the same
watch my world go from light to dark
too many olds to make a new start

just the same…

darkness falls - on me
close my eyes – i see

your pretty face
and i’m gonna try
not to
miss you

your face
your taste
your grace
your embrace

your smile
your touch
your voice
your love

darkness falls – on me
open my eyes – i see

i can’t deny
that i
miss
you




kc09



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Dichotomy of Her Goodbyes `


Usually it is an afterthought…goodbye…

Goodbye, bye, see you later
It is said in times of hurry
Times of…..eh?
…..Going

We use it everyday
It has become sort of a
Well wishing…

But,

There is something excruciating about the way she says goodbye

She has a way of saying it
That makes me hurt,
Makes me wish I could freeze time
And live in her eyes for eternity

And,

There is something alarming about the way she says goodbye

Almost a warning…
As if, once exposed;
All of the evil elements in the universe
Might conspire to deny my return
My journey,
May well be interrupted by a
Possessed breeze
That passes through me
And washes away any memory of her
And I will be lost…forever

Yet,

There is something so magical about the way she says goodbye

How she draws out the last of it
…G`byyyeeeeeeee…
It nearly begs for a question mark

Yes my sweet, yes
Yes I’m leaving
And yes,

I’ll be back

It sounds so,
Endearing so,
Laced with
Desire and longing
Her voice fluctuates
My soul
Chills
My mind visualizes her
In all the stages of her life
From the woman in front of me
All the way back
To her childhood

Back to this pretty little girl
Standing at the end of a driveway
Somewhere
Waving
With little pink bows
Holding back
Her hair

I love the little girl in her
The teenager
The woman

And I have come to both,
Detest
And love

The way she says….

……………goodbye



kc09



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Ember


most people probably didn’t notice

but, i did

the way her hair outlines
her face
the way it brushes so lightly across her cheek
when she turns

it’s a prelude to the tenderness of her soul
a glimpse into a delicate world where
she is known
and i am but, a stranger
a loyal subject from afar
never to presume
her interest
or favor
i am caught between
distance and reserve,
recognition and an invisible fire
that burns in me
with great promise

oh yes, they see her pretty
but, fail to see
her
not me no,
i see her
and i feel her
down to the marrow

i felt time stop
when she entered the room
it delivered to me a moment
of clarity
i shall not soon forget

she is
a princess
and would be queen
and i am not
of her caste

the animation
in those eyes
the way her dimples and
tiny laugh lines
frame that
most beautiful
most imperfect smile

imperfect for the entire world to see
though so few do

no one noticed
the way our eye’s met
like flint to stone
a spark
settling on
my soul

smoldering

being kept
alive
by the
sweet memory
of the
breeze of her
passing

that she should
come to me
in the latest of night
and lay
with me the kindling
of love
we roar with
a heat of
passion

i have never known

and i pledge
my lips
silent
by the light of day
yet with each
new dusk

not knowing
boundaries
of fence or field
a single ember
floats
to loves
call

untouched


kc08


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Midnight Blue


You draw your world differently
These days
With colors I don’t understand

In my mind I see the canvas you are working on

I am Toneless
My Monochrome state has no place in the spectrum of your ever changing
emotion
This Hue of emptiness,
leaves me numb
Yet, I feel each pass of your hand
The breeze takes me back,
to a time when I was your favorite instrument; when we drew with reckless abandon

And oh, how we did draw…

Red skies
And fireflies
Passionate scenes
On sidewalk dreams

Life was beautiful then…
Filled with blossoming love in endless variety
And it’s only now that you see I was not the source of your unhappiness
It lies within you
Deep
No matter how many times you try to wash it away
With your white wine
Or the green tint of the apple martinis’
It always comes back
Crystal clear
An effect, not even you could master

No, not in your charcoal sketch dreams
Or the watercolor reality of lonely nights
When my tears fall
No longer innocent
From my cheek
Forming a puddle around me
Leaving me floating
Like an island

Don’t worry
I am not fool enough to believe
You could swim
In my pleas and ever be touched
By their meaning
So for now,
Forever
Pacify this empty easel
As time takes its toll
Staining the very fabric
And color my heart at
Midnight
Blue

kc08