http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zUxpgZufouc

Hi Moto,

Thank you very much
I was wondering where you were, looking for you.
I will upload them again, maybe newer ones as well.

i think i have a good life
best family one could ever have
my cat at home and my cats outside
my job
few friends but real ones.
i love my home
i love the place i live in -fethiye - pearl of mediterranean aegean
i am grateful...

i still like my last boyfriend as a friend so much - more than a friend
still extremey good chat like we have never separated (it's been 3 years)
so much laugh every time we catch each other.
and we are there for each other when we need help

www.youtube.com/watch?v=DcN-9T4PV-g

i always keep away from wishing bad
i always say "god, the much they hurt me, give me that much health, goodness"
others badness has no help to me
but when i am deeply hurt, omg then they are in trouble.

the other one, mom had a hearth atack
had to quit after 9 years work at the hotel.
my manager is saying, ezi, dont wish anything bad for me.

i wished sth fatal happened and they wouldnt appear for a long while.
next day the apoligising one wasnt there. next day not there. 3rd day not there. i asked where e is.
big accident, family.
then i was there to calm him. hope he got a lesson.

i always say, dont get my hatred. when i wish something, it happens
dont make my heart break, dont make me wwwish bad for you.. sorry but it turns out to be true..

there were 2 guys tere, managers.
they were there for years, so when i started there once they tried making fun of me , really badly hurting. very bad. they said i am ugly, they said look in the mirror. i looked at them and wished they wwould just disappear. then i cried a lot. couldnt work for the rest of the day. my manager stopped me quitting job. one apologised. the other one carried on.

there is this woman at work
she is accountant but actually she is the owner's right-hand man
she is like owner
she yells, orders, very rude
there is noone she did not shout at
but me
she walks by me, and strokes my arm, says are you ok?
i may be the only one who likes her
she is right
she wants things right in details
i like details, and people caring about details.

i woke up at 03:30 after a few hours sleep
watched netflix
fed my stray babies
bin out
cleaned te litter of my pistachio
gave her gastro-intestinal and anti hair-ball
prepared a sandwich and peach bear
like winter mood
cant believe there wont be an other day off
it will be just off !!

everyday i am waliking 8-9 km in the hotel.

why i said 10 days is;
tomorroww is my day off
wednesday i wwill be back on 26th
31th is the day we are closing
i could not carry on for any more
i am knackered
i am dying of leg and feet soreness
i could easily sit on my *** but i tried my best
and i am tired..
yesterday 19:30 i said to malc and emi, sorry i will lay down on my bed..

they checked out today, but to stay at a place closeby, an apartment
russia circumstances
if i had an other place, i wwould just give them them to stay asking for no money
i love those 2 families too much
i said 10 days, then i will come to visit you, maybe i go before that.

sonya is an amazing baby of 1.5 years old, close maybe.
she is just amazing.
she loves me.
when she sees me, she starts clapping hands and laughing crazy - i dont know how that laughter somes out of her :)))))

she shares her food with me, out of he mouth, the food she chewed

this Russian 2 families, they were our guests at hotel
we - me and them- became close friends in 2 weeks time during their stay. we laughed a lot.
i am being paid to have fun wwwith them for the last 2 weeks ahhahaa :)

their daughter sonya.. OMG!! i am now her grandmother as she has a lovely mom. and the other family, "mark" the baby.. he waited for te last 2 days to give me a smile. but i mmade him smile too. my babiess

i am feeling so sorry for these Russian people
i had no bad or good feelings towards them as i never dealt with them till this Summer.
But they are so lovely.
They are always very distants at the begining, very distant!
but when they get to know you and trust you, they are very friendly and genuine.
My opinion is Russian people are lovely people.
i enjoy being with them and theirbabies... awww lovelyy

there are a lot of Russian people and they are all so so nice and desperate for a solution to keep their families safe and together.
so many stories..
family meeting for the last time before they find a solution, dad goes to one country and mum with kids going back to Russia
families looking for a place to live in Turkey
there is this boy, his head always in between his hands, his mother is ukranian father russian..

"today they didnt change my bed sheet"
for god's sake who on earth changes bed sheet everyday?!!

i am knackered
i feel like ran over by a truck
my feet are not going any longer
tomorrow is my day off and back at job on 19th and there will be 12 days left
but we are finished
totally finished.

PLEASE holidaymakers, remember we are human beings as well!