i always make sure everything is clean!
but that's how i usually keep my things haha.

thnx =]
i'll always be one of her best friends.
i have no plans on trying to ask her out anytime soon or anything,
and i do hope her and her boyfriend are happy together forever.
i actually dont see us together anymore, like i used to.
it's just one of those "wut if" scenarios.
would we be together like that?
if i met someone like her,
would i be in a loving relationship like she is in now?
it just makes me think.

There's this girl I used to like back in Soph. year of High school.
Back then, I was really awkward and really shy when it came to asking girls out. which i've honestly never done back then.
her name is jona.
my name is jon.
which we both thought was cool and funny and cute.
I used to be head over heels for this girl.
She was my ideal dream girl, for example.
Well, time passed and i never had the courage to ask her out.
I did ask if she wanted to hang out and go to the movies,
but she got busy last minute.
but instead of rescheduling, i didn't do anything except continue our friendship without letting anything happen =/
oh well, this was 3-4 years ago.
More time passed and she started going out with other guys.
well, just one guy. who was a total douche when he was with her.
(he's a good friend now.)
she dumped him.
and after a few weeks,
i finally told her how i felt.
i knew she wouldn't like me again like she used to,
but i had to say something, so i did.
more time passed and she started going out with her current boyfriend.
a really cool and good guy.
i've only met him once,
but yea.
Well, almost a year now has passed.
and she's pregnant.
happily pregnant.
and i thought i would still be jealous.
given that i did go out with her best friend for 7 months and gotten over her along time ago.
but still.
i find myself..
uneasy.
like, she's in a loving relationship and starting a family.
very young, at age 19.
but thats how she is.
and that's how i am.
i'm mature for my age and i know what's important in life.
it just makes me wish i had that going on.
not the whole pregnant thing.
..i dont wish I was pregnant haha.
but still.
to have found someone that i want to be with
and to be moving on to better places.
to be starting a family or at least thinking of it.
i feel older to have an old friend who's pregnant.
but i'm single again and without a clue as to where my life is going.
relationship wise.
i'm at peace with being single now.
that just means i can focus on myself and improve myself.
but still,
this whole college thing.
going from girl to girl.
video games,
shooting bb guns,
etc.
alot of very kiddy stuff.
means nothing when it comes to real life.
and idk.
i had to write this story somewhere,
i couldn't write it on myspace,
which i usually do,
but then jona would be able to read it.
and i dont want to complicate her life or anything.
i just want her to stay happy and be happy,
so if i stay out of all of it,
things could stay that way.

yea...
the whole child p0rn thing is so disgusting,
and thats why it's weird when the characters in manga and anime look sooooooo young.
but that's the art style, which originated from cartoons from disney and like, betty bop or whatever her name is.
i think if it's clearly child porn, it shud be banned.
but if it's just becuz of other reasons,
i'm going to call it censorship of art becuz they're only ideas.
i dont really like talking about touchy subjects like this..

i try every morning =[
no luck.

that you guys are really cool and really nice =]
other than myspace,
i have never felt so comfortable around a group of online ppl.
and i read the forums and i see how great the chemistry among everyone is.
and yea.
haha.

thank you =]

i'm tired of rhymes and trying to be clever.
i'll let my words deliver my heart.

i can't sleep as well as i used to.
i stay up late every night, falling asleep with the tv on.
i miss her too much, i reminisce of just how beautiful i once saw her as.
And i'm tired of not being able to fall asleep.
i'm stuck in a rut,
i cant sleep, and i dream of her.
such a problem to have.
I want to be in love again, I want to see beauty again.
i'm tired of being heartbroken,
i want to feel alive again.
i want to feel human, once more.


You want to know why we have desires?
It's to show us we are all incomplete.
They lead us to the person who can make us whole.
<3

ughh.
it's the weekend!
u shud be relaxing or somefin haha.

LOL.
wut concerns me the most is why they're in separate beds tho 0.o

lol, looked like an intene game of connect4

i think evolution is *****in.

it's always good to give her the benefit of the doubt.
of course, it's always a possibility that she's blowing you off,
but don't let that thought fully take over.

i'd say to let things play out.
talk to her casually for a bit and ask if she wants to hang out again.

LOL.
a homeboy is a close friend.

but i think a ho's a ho.
it's just a kind of lifestyle, i guess.
i'm not really the best one to be talking about it 0.o
i dont really know alot lol.

i'd say the horse drawn carriage.
but that car would be AMAZING to have XD

idk, i kinda like doing what i'm doing right now.
lol.

i agree haha.
i think everyone likes to be asked out tho.
cuz well, it's a great feeling.

lol. first to ask her out.
XD

I think almost everyone would agree that the man should make the first move.
But why is that?
I just want to hear different opinions.
I always thought the guy should ask the girl out because of tradition.
Like, it shows he has the courage to.

i'd wish to be able to control time.
or teleport!
or... both >:D

hmm. or have a really amazing gf.
..
hmm. or i'd wish to be a successful writer!
OR!
um.
dang, i wish i had more than one wish. lol.