For me it has always been one's ego

Sorry for my grammar(english was my third language)..plz bare with me..My ex once suggested to see a psychiatric as he thought I might be showing signs of depression like lose of appetite, always feeling sleepy, mood swings. I first thought he was joking(he is a depression person himself) but later on I came to mark and observe my behaviour..I do used to get jealous when people tried to ignore me..I always wanted to be the centre of attraction but would get upset when someone else get that attention.. When my parents didn't give me my full attention I sometimes used to throw a tantrum..I really wanted to see my family therapist but then I think they would think am just doing it just for attention..without proper treatment I guess I'll ho mad about it..I cry a lot..I have lost my self confident within myself..I think I am a loser with a big O..
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