When is she gonna cross my path

Im confused by how some women say they are searching for a man but dont say a good man. One who has experienced what its like to set yourself back because of vad decisions and immaturity but has grown and gained the understanding and wisdom needed in being better. One who wants to establish a mental.emotional and spiritual bridge of friendship. Most of yall just want a guy who resembles what you see in entertainment. Alot of guys are the same but its really hard for guys like me on sites like this. I belong to a special kind of queen. I dont think shes here