When I signed onto this site I thought I was ready to love again and of course accept the consequences but found that I wasn't as ready as I thought.

I had been through two traumatic losses in the previous years and my heart was still shut down. When you have suffered that much pain, your emotions kind of shut down and you cannot open up to others as much as you should for a relationship to grow. I met some wonderful men who were really interested and I could not understand my non response to them. I felt like there was a wall inbetween and I couldn't get around it. I had not completed the greiving process from those losses.

I have been working on myself and I am hoping to have worked through all of it before I attempt a relationship.