Topic: Read at your own risk...
mishaunique's photo
Thu 09/18/08 05:15 PM
WHAT IF WE WERE ALL HONEST ABOUT OUR FEELINGS ON DATING SITES? I AM GOING TO TAKE A CHANCE.
I DECIDED TO POST A POEM I WROTE YESTERDAY. IT SHOWS THAT YES, I HAVE SOME "EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE" SO TO SPEAK, HOWEVER IT WILL BE INTERESTING TO SEE IF ANYONE WRITES TO ME AFTER THIS. HERE IT IS: MY EMOTIONS ONLINE FOR THE WORLD...

MORE THAN I CAN TAKE

You tell me to get over it,
You tell me to move on,
But how can I be happy,
when part of me is gone?
My heart had been shattered once to much,
the pieces aren't all there,
How can someone love me,
when I don't even care?
I want so much to feel something,
to be happy with the sun,
How can I be loved,
when my life has come undone?
You say to give it up,
to go on with my life,
you think it's oh so easy,
but I thought I'd be his wife...
He said we'd share the world together,
we'd grow old without a care,
and now I find myself alone,
with more pain than I can bare...
He said I was a lady, worth something in his eyes,
How can I get over him,
when I believed his lies?
I am just an empty shell,
waiting for the day,
when I can feel a tiny something,
and know that it's okay.
I have nightmares every night, I can't get myself straight,
I cry myself to sleep,
I am counting on some fate...
I want so much to live again, with joy, with hope, with pride...
But how can I move on,
when I feel so dead inside.

s1owhand's photo
Thu 09/18/08 05:21 PM
Edited by s1owhand on Thu 09/18/08 05:22 PM
bigsmile flowerforyou

very real
like
novocaine...
it slowly
wears
off
a twinge of hurt
just a pinch
in the end
painfree
healed

flowerforyou

welcome
please
share

Differentkindofwench's photo
Thu 09/18/08 05:23 PM
Reading this was a risk well worth taking - you did very well.

If others no longer speak to you
due to your honest state,
have no regrets, as you meet yourself (and you will)
and let them pass your gate.

mishaunique's photo
Thu 09/18/08 05:23 PM
What if it feels like you are never going to heal?

s1owhand's photo
Thu 09/18/08 05:25 PM
that's what friends are for

flowerforyou

Differentkindofwench's photo
Thu 09/18/08 05:25 PM
Some days with heavy rains, it feels like the sun will never again shine does it not? What happens? The sun eventually shines. Look deeply in that mirror darlin' you will see what I do ------- worthiness!!!!!

mishaunique's photo
Thu 09/18/08 05:31 PM
Thank you all. Really. flowerforyou

redhead44613's photo
Thu 09/18/08 05:31 PM
:cry: I know how you feel

mishaunique's photo
Thu 09/18/08 05:34 PM

:cry: I know how you feel


I'm sorry. I wouldn't wish this feeling on anyone else.

BrooklineBaby's photo
Thu 09/18/08 05:36 PM
Awwwww Sweetie - I well know how you feel.......just when you get to that point when you fully let your guard down, let yourself trust and be happy, then all of a sudden you get an "oops! - sorry.......I don't love you anymore, or I love this woman and want to be with HER...."
First of all, remember IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT.......you didn't do anything wrong!!! Sometimes the "right feelings" just aren't there - and either the guy is too "nice" to figure out how to tell you, or he's a jerk not worthy of your time.......the latter is more difficult to swallow, trust me........
Whenever I've let my guard down in the past I've always lived to regret it, 'cause, well, there's a Bumper Sticker on MySpace that sums it up pretty well, " She'd afraid to let her guard down, because everyone who's said they'd always been there---left"......
Start living life for YOURSELF mishaunique........enjoy the wonderful person YOU are, IT WILL TAKE TIME - I won't sugarcoat it, TAKE that time to hurt, for then and only then can you begin to heal......then begin by doing something special for YOURSELF, because you DESERVE it and are WORTH it...eventually, take YOURSELF out for a treat, let's say dinner and a movie, enjoy your company, and before you know it....someone else will be enjoying it as well my dear lady.....

One more thing - ALWAYS GUARD YOUR HEART - it's a very precious gift, worthy ONLY for the man who is SO in love with you that HE DOESN'T EVEN THINK about being with anyone else, a man WHO MISSES YOU when he isn't with you, a MAN WHO WILL TREASURE YOU AND YOUR LOVE for the rest of eternity........THAT is the man who deserves you and your heart.

Good luck and take good care,

BrooklineBabyflowers

mishaunique's photo
Thu 09/18/08 05:45 PM

Awwwww Sweetie - I well know how you feel.......just when you get to that point when you fully let your guard down, let yourself trust and be happy, then all of a sudden you get an "oops! - sorry.......I don't love you anymore, or I love this woman and want to be with HER...."
First of all, remember IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT.......you didn't do anything wrong!!! Sometimes the "right feelings" just aren't there - and either the guy is too "nice" to figure out how to tell you, or he's a jerk not worthy of your time.......the latter is more difficult to swallow, trust me........
Whenever I've let my guard down in the past I've always lived to regret it, 'cause, well, there's a Bumper Sticker on MySpace that sums it up pretty well, " She'd afraid to let her guard down, because everyone who's said they'd always been there---left"......
Start living life for YOURSELF mishaunique........enjoy the wonderful person YOU are, IT WILL TAKE TIME - I won't sugarcoat it, TAKE that time to hurt, for then and only then can you begin to heal......then begin by doing something special for YOURSELF, because you DESERVE it and are WORTH it...eventually, take YOURSELF out for a treat, let's say dinner and a movie, enjoy your company, and before you know it....someone else will be enjoying it as well my dear lady.....

One more thing - ALWAYS GUARD YOUR HEART - it's a very precious gift, worthy ONLY for the man who is SO in love with you that HE DOESN'T EVEN THINK about being with anyone else, a man WHO MISSES YOU when he isn't with you, a MAN WHO WILL TREASURE YOU AND YOUR LOVE for the rest of eternity........THAT is the man who deserves you and your heart.

Good luck and take good care,

BrooklineBabyflowers


The problem is, I have been this way for almost 2 and a half months. I have gone out on dates and have done plenty for myself. I just am having trouble enjoying anything. I hate this.
This was a man who looked into my eyes and told me that when he looked at me, all he saw was our future. We had looked at houses that day, and he said he never thought he could love anyone like he loved me. 3 hours later, he broke up with me. I need some closure.

GOALLTHEWAY's photo
Thu 09/18/08 05:48 PM

WHAT IF WE WERE ALL HONEST ABOUT OUR FEELINGS ON DATING SITES? I AM GOING TO TAKE A CHANCE.
I DECIDED TO POST A POEM I WROTE YESTERDAY. IT SHOWS THAT YES, I HAVE SOME "EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE" SO TO SPEAK, HOWEVER IT WILL BE INTERESTING TO SEE IF ANYONE WRITES TO ME AFTER THIS. HERE IT IS: MY EMOTIONS ONLINE FOR THE WORLD...

MORE THAN I CAN TAKE

You tell me to get over it,
You tell me to move on,
But how can I be happy,
when part of me is gone?
My heart had been shattered once to much,
the pieces aren't all there,
How can someone love me,
when I don't even care?
I want so much to feel something,
to be happy with the sun,
How can I be loved,
when my life has come undone?
You say to give it up,
to go on with my life,
you think it's oh so easy,
but I thought I'd be his wife...
He said we'd share the world together,
we'd grow old without a care,
and now I find myself alone,
with more pain than I can bare...
He said I was a lady, worth something in his eyes,
How can I get over him,
when I believed his lies?
I am just an empty shell,
waiting for the day,
when I can feel a tiny something,
and know that it's okay.
I have nightmares every night, I can't get myself straight,
I cry myself to sleep,
I am counting on some fate...
I want so much to live again, with joy, with hope, with pride...
But how can I move on,
when I feel so dead inside.


I'm going to be honest from now on. I don’t think they tolerate too much honesty here though.

mishaunique's photo
Thu 09/18/08 05:51 PM


I'm going to be honest from now on. I don’t think they tolerate too much honesty here though.



Most people on dating sites are afraid if they are honest and open, then they won't get dates. Sad, but true. I can't help the way I am. I wouldn't know who else to be. :smile:

BrooklineBaby's photo
Thu 09/18/08 05:52 PM


Awwwww Sweetie - I well know how you feel.......just when you get to that point when you fully let your guard down, let yourself trust and be happy, then all of a sudden you get an "oops! - sorry.......I don't love you anymore, or I love this woman and want to be with HER...."
First of all, remember IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT.......you didn't do anything wrong!!! Sometimes the "right feelings" just aren't there - and either the guy is too "nice" to figure out how to tell you, or he's a jerk not worthy of your time.......the latter is more difficult to swallow, trust me........
Whenever I've let my guard down in the past I've always lived to regret it, 'cause, well, there's a Bumper Sticker on MySpace that sums it up pretty well, " She'd afraid to let her guard down, because everyone who's said they'd always been there---left"......
Start living life for YOURSELF mishaunique........enjoy the wonderful person YOU are, IT WILL TAKE TIME - I won't sugarcoat it, TAKE that time to hurt, for then and only then can you begin to heal......then begin by doing something special for YOURSELF, because you DESERVE it and are WORTH it...eventually, take YOURSELF out for a treat, let's say dinner and a movie, enjoy your company, and before you know it....someone else will be enjoying it as well my dear lady.....

One more thing - ALWAYS GUARD YOUR HEART - it's a very precious gift, worthy ONLY for the man who is SO in love with you that HE DOESN'T EVEN THINK about being with anyone else, a man WHO MISSES YOU when he isn't with you, a MAN WHO WILL TREASURE YOU AND YOUR LOVE for the rest of eternity........THAT is the man who deserves you and your heart.

Good luck and take good care,

BrooklineBabyflowers


The problem is, I have been this way for almost 2 and a half months. I have gone out on dates and have done plenty for myself. I just am having trouble enjoying anything. I hate this.
This was a man who looked into my eyes and told me that when he looked at me, all he saw was our future. We had looked at houses that day, and he said he never thought he could love anyone like he loved me. 3 hours later, he broke up with me. I need some closure.



Oh - WOW - that really stinks........I'm sooooo very sorry...that must be devastating.........

BrooklineBaby's photo
Thu 09/18/08 05:54 PM



I'm going to be honest from now on. I don’t think they tolerate too much honesty here though.



Most people on dating sites are afraid if they are honest and open, then they won't get dates. Sad, but true. I can't help the way I am. I wouldn't know who else to be. :smile:




Neither do I........maybe that's why I'm alone........laugh ..You know what?? If people cannot tolerate my being "Just Me", then too bad..........I'd rather be alone than try to be someone I'm not......

mishaunique's photo
Thu 09/18/08 05:56 PM
What was that Monroe quote?
"If you can't tolerate me at my worst, than you don't deserve me at my best."

Does anyone know the exact quote?

I am trying really hard. I am. I am NEVER like this. I don't know why I am in such a rut this time. *grrrrrrr*

BrooklineBaby's photo
Thu 09/18/08 06:00 PM

What was that Monroe quote?
"If you can't tolerate me at my worst, than you don't deserve me at my best."

Does anyone know the exact quote?

I am trying really hard. I am. I am NEVER like this. I don't know why I am in such a rut this time. *grrrrrrr*




'Cuz you got BAMBOOZLED by an a**hole!!!!!!!!!!flowers And it threw you for a loop........

GOALLTHEWAY's photo
Thu 09/18/08 06:02 PM



I'm going to be honest from now on. I don’t think they tolerate too much honesty here though.



Most people on dating sites are afraid if they are honest and open, then they won't get dates. Sad, but true. I can't help the way I am. I wouldn't know who else to be. :smile:


I got kicked off of here once for telling a Gal that I wanted to wear her like a hat.

mishaunique's photo
Thu 09/18/08 06:06 PM




I'm going to be honest from now on. I don’t think they tolerate too much honesty here though.



Most people on dating sites are afraid if they are honest and open, then they won't get dates. Sad, but true. I can't help the way I am. I wouldn't know who else to be. :smile:


I got kicked off of here once for telling a Gal that I wanted to wear her like a hat.


OMG! That's so funny! Thanks for the giggle. rofl

GOALLTHEWAY's photo
Thu 09/18/08 06:11 PM





I'm going to be honest from now on. I don’t think they tolerate too much honesty here though.



Most people on dating sites are afraid if they are honest and open, then they won't get dates. Sad, but true. I can't help the way I am. I wouldn't know who else to be. :smile:


I got kicked off of here once for telling a Gal that I wanted to wear her like a hat.


OMG! That's so funny! Thanks for the giggle. rofl


OMG...You get me...thats so cool!!!!