shouts of joy, excited thrills
curiosity peeks
tantalizing games in play
my heart grows with interest%

anxiously, fervently,
I try to finish work
excited that I can finish
but it doesn't let me go

it digs at me relentlessly
like a demon from unknown depths
tearing ever deeply my skin
the closer I'm toward the end

children outside laugh and run
and wait for me to to join
but as the day sets the sun
they wonder if I care

i want so much to be with you
where they are and where they go
i want so much to see that special girl
the one that forgives me most

but I'll stay inside to do my chores
and by the day's end I'm spent
with no reward but television
to help me forget
how much I have cheated myself

I bask in its bluish light
softly, quietly it infiltrates
i forget, i don't even know
as it slowly harvests my soul
as it takes away
whatever that is left

i am done
now i am become
radio-active death
i must never, ever,
let
you
see
me
like
this

..Wow..

Um... second that. Very intense write. Powerful emotion. Seems deeply personal. I was actually kinda taken aback.

So... yeah. Wow.

thank you both very much. it means a lot to me on this one.

I agree with, plastic_pancakes, this write is so powerful… your desire for this special girl is so provocative, and that you want to give up everything else just to be with her… but then you make the ultimate choice just to ignore her at your own loss... how unfortunate for you both, Sinner, given how she must care deeply when she never holds grudges against you…

(((DaySinner)))...All your poems are good, some are gooder When I read you, I can always count on reading something "for the very first time"...You have a gift

This...

"the one who forgives me most"

and this...

"I bask in its bluish light
softly, quietly it infiltrates
i forget, i don't even know
as it slowly harvests my soul"


are the WOW factors for me......

Sorry to comment again... but I reread this and just realized that you referenced the Bhagavad Gita/J. Robert Oppenheimer's Trinity speech.

Damn, this is a great write!

thank you all very much. And thank you PP for looking deeper.
I feel sorry for Robert. It is as if life punished him for do his best. But it was his own fault. He unknowingly betrayed himself.