Topic: Big fat Negative
JaymeStephens84a0lc's photo
Thu 09/27/07 06:41 AM
I took the test this morning... nothing. I'm done believing in anything. I don't see the point in being a woman if my body can't do the one thing I'm supposed to be garunteed to be able to do... forget it. I'm done caring anymore.

MsTeddyBear2u's photo
Thu 09/27/07 06:47 AM
Awwwwwwww time and patience dear-
Sometimes when you try too hard, it won't happen...
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LoriZ's photo
Thu 09/27/07 06:48 AM
i don't know what kind of test you took, but there is more to being a woman than being a body. and if you are talking about babies, it might be that god has a baby out there for you, but you are going to have to adopt it and love it instead of giving birth to it. there is a plan for everything, really there is. childbirth is not your only purpose on this planet. Loving, being a good friend, nurturing those around you, finding children to love that other people just threw out like trash, that is your purpose.
I can understand being upset and let down, but as women we are strong, we support the whole world, and we have more purpose than you could ever imagine

southernbeachbunny83's photo
Thu 09/27/07 06:49 AM
I'm sorry. I know that feeling! I went through the same thing for 4 years. I finally gave up but i've had alot of support from family and friends. i do have a 4 1/2 year old that i am so thankful God gave to me! Good luck!

bgeorge's photo
Thu 09/27/07 06:51 AM
i'm sooo sorry jayme, pls don't stop caring...what about that beautiful little child that was supposed to have a mother like you and ended up w/a monster instead...and would give anything to be safe in your arms and know they are loved and wanted...also don't give up it surely still may happen naturally for you...try not to stress it really messes up your body...love, b

Puffins1958's photo
Thu 09/27/07 06:51 AM
Jayme...

I've taken home pregnancy tests in the past and they came back POSITIVE...to have a blood test taken at my doctors office to fine out I wasn't grumble grumble

I don't believe in those tests, if you think you might be pregnant, I would make an appointment to see your doctor and have blood test taken...

Good luck to you honey

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JaymeStephens84a0lc's photo
Thu 09/27/07 07:02 AM
I'm not one of those people who tortures myself with 50 negative tests... one is all it takes to let me know where i stand in the world. I'm meant for nothing more than to be miserable and alone. Whether I'm with anyone or not, I'm alone. I wasn't trying to get pregnant, my body just decided to give me false hope. I had given up, knew it would never happen. Screw it all. I'm done.

prettynormal's photo
Thu 09/27/07 07:12 AM
When it comes to being alone; be grateful to be alone and not spending any of your precious time with the wrong person!! I spent 12 years of my life wasting every breath on the wrong person. You're body will be blessed with a baby when it is ready. You're heart and your mind have no control over what has been planned for you. Let your heart be at peace and then your body will feel ready. I believe that god gives us what we need when we are not looking for it!! Hang in there, you are never alone. flowerforyou

pkh's photo
Thu 09/27/07 07:14 AM
Don't ever give up,and if it does not happen that does not make you any less of a woman.There are so many other choices,I wish you the best

s1owhand's photo
Thu 09/27/07 07:15 AM
jayme i am sorry to hear. but you are NOT alone. and many
good things are yet to happen for you! take a break but
don't despair. lean on your friends. and develop new ones
always.

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(((((jayme)))))

JaymeStephens84a0lc's photo
Thu 09/27/07 07:20 AM
I do have someone, he's a bit of a butt, but I have him. I believe that no matter what I ever do, I will not get my miracle. I'm not one of those people who can afford to adopt or anything else. I could manage to raise a child, it wouldn't be easy, but I KNOW I could do it. About the only way I could would be to do it naturally, I can't afford fertility drugs and all that other stuff. I just have to pray for it. I'm learning as time goes on that my prayers are not heard. I'm done praying. It gets you nothing. I don't pray for myself, never really have. This time, one of the very few instances that I did... nothing. I don't feel like I'm being selfish by asking for one damn cell to work properly. I DO feel like it makes me less of a woman, I feel like it makes the fact that I'm a woman invalid. To me, thats what it means. I feel like the biggest joke on the planet.

jamiepartap's photo
Thu 09/27/07 07:24 AM
don't loose hope luv, find out the problem of why u cannot concieve and have ur doctor tell u ur options. u could have a fertilized egg, from u and ur sig. other placed in another woman's belly and u could get "pregnant" that way. just go talk to ur doctor...please. i have heard there is no better thing than being a parent....( my mom says otherwise...afterall having me as a kid...well....need i say more?)

JaymeStephens84a0lc's photo
Thu 09/27/07 07:27 AM
thats just it, I cant' afford those options. If I was going to have another woman's child, I'd rather just adopt. I feel like using another woman's egg would just proove even further that I'm a joke. Like "haha, her cells work, and yours don't"

Barbiesbigsister's photo
Thu 09/27/07 08:24 AM
Lordy! Girl! i am sorry about your results. I remember a doc telling me years ago i would not be able to carry a child. Just IMAGINE my face at 36 when what i thought was the flu, at my yearly physical required for my firefighting profession having the doc walk into the room and annouce that the "flu is due in about 8 months!!"noway noway noway noway noway He was close!! mine arrived at 6months fightin and raisin kane all the way!!!!! a first responder for sure! Like mama...Like SON!! Thats my boy!smokin smokin smokin
Do NOT listen to the doctors girl. TOO MANY ARE DEAD WRONG ON THIS ONE!!! Only you and god got the big picture. For me i was truly given a miracle in the making. flowerforyou flowerforyou flowerforyou

JaymeStephens84a0lc's photo
Thu 09/27/07 08:38 AM
I think I'm just gonna go for it. Whether he sticks around or not, I'm more than happy to be a single mother. I found a really reasonably priced ov predictor/pg test kit online, just don't have paypal, debit, or credit. It really sucks that ppl don't do paper transactions anymore. I mean, would it kill them to bill me and let me pay by money order? I hate big companies!!

Jess642's photo
Thu 09/27/07 08:39 AM
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JaymeStephens84a0lc's photo
Thu 09/27/07 08:44 AM
Most people don't understand my desire to be a mother. They REALLY don't get why I'd want to be a single mother. I just look at it like this, even when there IS a father around, the mother does most of it anyway. My mom raised my older sister and I on her own and did a great job. We never had much, but because of that learned to appreciate what we do have. I'd rather raise a child on modest means anyway. Who needs lots of money to raise a kid? I sure don't. I need enough to get them what they need and only some of what they want. I can spoil a child with love and affection and praise, not toys and gadgets and money. I really want that ov kit!!!