I'm looking for someone special in my life and I am having problems.

I've been on dating sites and wasted time & money. At least the free sites are less costly. LOL

So I met someone that I messaged and talked to a lot before we met in person. According to what she wrote I felt that she could be the one.
We met at a breakfast bar in her town and had some food and some conversation. She seemed nice enough and we started dating. We went to some movies, a few dinners and spent time at each other's house on weekends.
Now, from our conversations before we met she stated that she was uncomfortable with guys that are always all over her. We discussed making love over sex and how each of us viewed respect.
We kissed and hugged but that is all we ever did. I respected her wishes that she wrote to me and it was boring and uneasy as a relationship. There just were no 'Hot' moments. I wanted to but as a jester of respect I told her that she can set the pace. Well, she never set the pace, 6 months and nothing fired up with us.
I introduced her to my family and then when it came to meeting hers, she flat out refused. Thats when I knew this would never work.
We are still friends but there is no 'spark'.
Not because I didn't want there to be but because by giving her what she wanted nothing could develop.

I'm looking for all the right qualities but there has to be a sexual bond, or at least an attempt of one.

I know how to treat a woman. I know that making love is different than just having sex. I know that a person's family is important to the relationship and noones family is without flaw. I know how to show interest in things I have never experienced and I have a lot of experiences to share. I also know how to show love, affection and restraint.

I've redone my profile and broadened my particulars. I message women whether they have a picture or not, based on what they write. I've slimmed down my data stream and left more to ask about.

So, once more I am going to give this place a try. I'm looking for women in my age bracket and type to just message me and start a dialog. We can do this on this email system for a bit then when we get better aquainted maybe personal email then skype, hangouts or phone.

I am really looking for someone fairly close to my home but if you just want to talk to a man that isn't a jerk, I will talk with you no matter where you are. I'm not interested in relocating tho.

I hope I hear from someone. I'm not lonely but I am alone.

Sorry to hear what you have been through.
I hope all the best for your search and you get what you are looking for.

No need for apologies, life ia just life.
Thanx for commenting tho.

Tonight I had my daughter and her family over for a fish fry. Awesome catfish! I made an attempt at making cinamon rolls with filling and it turned out terrible but we had fun and I guess thats all that matters.

I drank some beer, which I hardly ever do anymore and it made me sick and wishful. I realized that no matter how I am my kids love me. The beer tasted good but I had some somber moments because of it. I guess I really don't like alcohol anymore...

Well, the beer has me thinking about my situation tonight and things are as they are and I figured I would share some thoughts.

It seems to me that unless someone brings an available woman into my life I will never meet anyone. I don't do bars - not interested in the types you Find there anyway. I don't do church because my spirituality exceeds the doctrine. When I shop I perform the task at hand and barely notice anyone.

I'm limited to these online sites to present who I am to the masses and frankly, I have no idea what I am doing. I figure that if I can relay my personality to you that perhaps, maybe, there might be something that clicks with one of you that says "hey, This guy might be okay"

I know that if you could see me as I am you would want to know me.