I stare up at you with my eyes wide, and adoration on my face. I seem to hang off your every word. I didn't know what love was but, I knew what I felt was as close as I ever been. I wanted to watch our relationship grow; to blossom into a beautiful flower that could only reflect the flow of the moon light.
I was young.
Instead, what I should have been saying was ‘tell me about your five year plan’. I should have been asking probing question that would reveal to me, the Inter working or your heart and mind. I should have been making sure that what you wanted from me was not just a ‘casual’ good time.
I should have done so many things different that I am left with wishing I could go back in time. To start over, and maybe let my younger self know.

your poem shows beauty in remorse!
thank you!

I am glad you like it.
The poem is meant for the main character to be filled with love, even after she was tormented by her lovers deceptive ways. But I also wanted her to grow from her experience and and look back on what she could have changed.
Thank you for your kind words.