my daughter wrote these poems when she was 11yrs old she is now 32yrs. dont judge me dont judge me by my looks dont reject me because of my race get to know me before you decide my place dont critize my actions untill you know the reasons why keep your mind open keep the hope alive dont despise me without reason just give me the chance to prove the good i have inside. take time to discover the feeling that i hide never hate with only one look give me the chance i deserve look and see, and you will find the love inside of me where are you i cant belive what you've done you've thrown away such happiness, memory and fun, me your daughter a bright young girl growing up in a world so cruel growing up with no father, no father to guide and instruct me but for you i still care. i reach for you but no one is there, i've seen you twice 2yrs ago and that was very nice, so nice to meet you, nice to see you, watch you and learn from you, but that isent enough not enough for me to love you. and not enough for you to be my dad you were never there when i needed you to care, you were never around when i slept so sound, where were you when i needed you where are you now. what goes on in your mind is it me your trying to find, are you there, were you there is it me that you love or do you even care. these are the questions in my mind. where were you when i was born, where were you when my heart was torn. dont you know i care, sometimes i sit and wonder what it would be like to have you around to have you in my life, what goes on in your mind when you hear my name is it my heart your trying to find or do you fear that you are so far and never will be near. anyone can be a father but it takes a real man to be a daddy (copywrite) am 5ft tall, i have dark brown hair and brown eyes, im part mexican indian french canadian german and irish i have 2 kids and 4 wondeful grandkids..im looking for someone that can be emotionally supportive towards me as i can be for them, im not looking for someone to take pity on me do to my health issue im wanting someone that will want me for who i am. as beauty is the eye of the beholder. i might as well post this for i have to say it any how. i have had problems with my kidneys for over 32yrs they think longer, and i have been on dialysis for 7yrs. and almost 7yrs ago i had a heartvalve replacment as to find out it was a birthdefect that doesnt show up untill your early 40s i would wake up in the middle of the nite feeling like i ran a mile and i didnt do anything, it got so bad i couldnt even walk a block finally went to the doc and they sent me to a specailist, and that when i found out, i also had a pacemaker put in 7 days later reason was they felt my heart wasent regulating how they wanted it to be. as for the kidney issue i have another birthdefect that my son and i both have its called lawerence beild syndrome, and it effects each person in a differnt way, but it does cause issue with the kidneys. my son only has one kidney and we found that out 6yrs ago. he is also now on dialysis he has been sense the end of dec 2006. im just like anyone else as i can do anything anyone else can do, im a fighter at heart.. (P.S) IM NOT LOOKING FOR A activity partner if i was it would be posted on my profile.. SO QUIT ASKING!!!!!! P.S.S i enjoy fishing, camping collecting old dolls, antiques, exploring nature, window shopping can be interesting at times as well.i dont dance but im always willing to learn. P.S.S dont take pity on me do to my health issue.. not looking for someone that is going to feel sorry for me P,S IF YOU ASK ME IF IM MARRIED IM NOT BUT IF YOU RESPOND BACK ASKING THE SAME DUMB QUESTION.. THEN I GUESS YOU HAVE NO BRAINS TO BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND OR READ?????