**** you mother****ers that made my life hard, especially you ****ers
the left me scarred. I understand you had a good intention, but this
**** hurts more then I can mention. I've never had that unique
connection, I'm ****ing weak with out your affection, you left me with
out direction, with a lot of **** that needs correction. That's my
darkest issue, the fear to show I miss you, if you were hear I'd kiss
you. Not with death but with hate, you really ****ed up my fate. Never
were you there for me, so answer this carefully, how could you care for
me. You gave me up at birth *****, I hope your **** wasn't worth ****.
Even if you did it for what's best, you still ripped a hole in my chest.
That hole can't be filled, until the day I'm killed, or I see your blood
spilled. You were some kind of ****ing whore, that's something I can't
just ignore. I hoped that was not the case, I just wanna see your face,
so I can feel in place, and not like a disgrace. Who the **** was my
father, did he even try to bother? Or did the bastard just split, I bet
he said he'd never forget, but that's bull****. Cause I'm still waiting,
and stuck in debating, whether or not he'll ever show, when the hurt I
feel you'll never know. I swear under oath, I ****ing hate you both.
Thanks for deserting me and causing what's hurting me. I guess you'll
never see, what I mess I grew to be...


i appologize for the language howerever i take this part of my life very
seriously and i feel the language emphasizes on the feelings that helped
construct this

i feel so very sorry for u ..i too was adopted so i know the empty
feelings u feel inside....i truly hope u can get over that hatred u fel
and move on...when u have children of your own they will be even more
precious to u just because they are your blood.....

thank you for your empathy, and i'm glad you can relate, i have mixed
feelings about it. there are times where i'm greatful and others i get
really bitter. I did vowe to myself that i will never give one of my
own up for addoption.

Sorry for your pain, but I would have to thank GOD, that at least
I was able to be BORN,,,
One can always learn to adjust, but one first has to HAVE LIFE!!
I hated my drunken dad, but also knew that if it was not for HIS seed, I
would not have been ME!!!

that is a very good point iam4u, i used to always focus on the negative
and never appreciate the good, and i would take life for granted.