I've been feeling down
Lately when you come around
and I'm not too proud
Of the things going thru my head right now
I'm conflicted
I'm feeling restricted
I can't be myself anymore
Know I know where we stand
I only have one foot on the floor
I'm off balance
Feeling incomplete
and obsolete
I'll never get the chance
To hold you close to me
I don't know what to say now
I'm feeling kinda dumb
I've felt rejection before
but now I just feel numb
I'm feeling numb

hopefully with time things will get better for you....

great read...i can really relate to it

I actually wrote this awhile ago when I started hanging out with an ex of mine from high school that I had thought I was in love with.I basically had moved in with her and her two children and helped her with everything in the world but we were not hooking up. Then when I spilled my guts... She basically told me I was the perfect guy for a relationship but she wasn't ready for one. Then went on to tell me how she was a bad person and would prob end up cheating on me andshe cared too much about me to ever let that happen. I respected and admired the honesty but was totally heartbroken. It was a bad deal but it could have ended up a lot worse. so... this writing was about that ordeal