It has been hours since we have spoken and in truth it has been days since we have talked. With each passing hour I feel the distance grow.
Maybe it is time, past time, but I must say it hurts.
You use to captivate me with your life and you filled my days when I laid here in pain and you took the loneliness from a very dark place away.
I never meant to be a burden.
I never meant to be anything at all to you, but you woke my heart and gave me hope.
You made me need and you made me feel.
And now that's all I have are feelings!
Is life not cruel?
I am sorry I kept you.
I am sorry I bitched.
I am sorry I was and am not what you need.
Maybe I was wrong to make you my refuge, my salvation.
But you let me use you as a tourniquet.
You helped mend the wounds and because of that I became dependent.
The nights still scare me but you can not be my savior or my light anymore.
The monsters are all back out like a plague and I have no hero to fight them off.
I did not build this world I live in alone.
Back inside myself I go to protect my heart again.
To save myself from me,from the pain that's to hard to bare alone.
This time a steel frame never to be tore down again.
No more dreams.
No more disappointment.
No more, no more
I did everything to fight you and you saw me at my weakest and you knew what I had to to give and I gave it.
And now it is not enough.
I am being irrational...huh?
Leave me to wonder
Leave me without someone to talk to.
Leave me here to bleed these tears from my eyes.
Leave me to never ever love again.
There is no going back, the words you used cut my heart to shreds and deep.
I heard you loud and clear.
And with each hour that passes between us without so much as a word I build the wall around my heart.

What an emotionally intense write...Awesome..