I used to think that the world around me, and even my own cognition, boiled down to physics at the deepest level. And I still do. But I think that it takes intuitive and subject leaps to reach that conclusion in an experiential manner. In order to do that, it could be advised to drop the strictly logical and just look at the tendencies of nature and beings in it to get the gist of the play as it is going down. But there is the impasse, the spot I appear to be stuck at. Is science better left abandoned in this age, science in the sense of advances in theoretical knowledge and not technology, and should I try to be more spiritual because that is more needed than lofty understanding in print? Or is there a new subjective science yet to be born, or revitalized, where understanding of the whole cosmos comes from just understanding the human form in its utmost realization as it is formed in this universe? The scientist may become more of a seer or physician, and less of a lab result dependent thinker using just external facts and no personal experience. I mean, really, the world will call for one order of scientists or the dismissal of another class, but I still would like to have some effect, if only this business of what science can do and be in this tried age can be sorted out before opportunities for a new way of conducting science pass.