Its all in my mind from along time ago
The demons that broke me and assaulted my know
I fought like a soldier with purpose and conviction
I was dismantled by silos in every direction

I cried every night wondering when I’d hit ground
Always kept falling…not able to sound
Death… scooped me up and made a raw deal
To send me to safety but never to heal

I would gain mental strength from the life I was dealt
Passer bys told me that’s how they all felt
I could understand the pain and help others too
Instead I just perished …ran away from you

You were sick for so long
I would cry how its wrong
You would grip my hand tight
And deliver the good fight

I know you are living under new skin today
Yet I hope that you know I would never betray
You carried me over the dangerous light
You listened to my trials no matter the plight

Grandma I loved you as I still do today
I wish I could show you then wasn’t my way
The last time we met you emptied your eyes
You let go my hand and severed all ties

The woman who always would put out her hand
Saw fit to release me like the dust blown sand
She opened her eyes but no longer saw
As she stared at me empty unable to thaw

So twenty years later wherever you are
Give me a moment to shine for your star
Allow me to heal for you always were selfless
Forgive me for fleeing when you cried you were helpless

I was so young and weak but always loved you
More than simple words can say …or that I could ever do
I died when you let go but somehow still breathe
For it was your breath that guided me and showed me to be

I think about you grandma each and every day
Wonder if you saw me…what you would say
Would you choose to accept me as one of your own
Or have I become just another unknown

I cry every night hoping to hit ground
I still keep on falling unable to sound.

Kinda hits ya in the gut and blows all the air out doesn't it.

Good write!

If only it didnt. Thank you for the compliment.

Excellent write!

Memories have a way of waking us up sometimes.

beautifully written darlin....

Thank you all.

very beautiful gc

Beautiful

Knew you were deep and now it is official