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Outside the Glass
On The edge of sanity, I watch the world go by
Watching and observing while the people live their lives
I’m the one that’s on the edge waiting for a change
Overlooked, invisible, and always so deranged

I’m the one that you don’t hear
I’m the one that you don’t see
I’m the one that will hold back, and keep it all inside of me
Scared to need, scared to want, scared I’ll always fail
The world’s color’s draining and it’s fast becoming pale

On the edge the world goes by, and things continue on
You may stop to visit, but I know you’ll soon be gone
I will stop to wonder, and explore what’s in my head
I want to find a switch to stop all these thoughts I dread

I’m the one that you don’t hear
I’m the one that you don’t see
I’m the one that will hold back, and keep it all inside of me
Scared to need, scared to want, scared I’ll always fail
The world’s color’s draining and it’s fast becoming pale

On the edge of sanity, I long for something more
Cringing as I see another hope get ripped and torn
I’m the one that sits alone just outside the glass
Watching all the world drift just outside my grasp
Written by- Sandra Hedin
April 26, 2008

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**A Prism without light**
That cloak of doubt is itching again
Driving further into my skin
That black hole is swinging by
Hidden inside the darkest sky
Nothing is spared, nothing is missed
All is swallowed into the abyss

Imprisoned in my safe seclusion
Lost inside my self delusion
Isolation and confusion
Will there be some absolution?

Back and forth in a monotonous rhythm
Seeing from inside my dark little prism
Nothingness comes, the black hole will rage
All the monsters come out of the cage
I huddle and marvel at the show
So tired of trying to fight the flow

Imprisoned in my safe seclusion
Lost inside my self delusion
Isolation and confusion
Kept from finding absolution

I am here, but out in space
Trying to hide from my disgrace
I’ve made my prism and hidden inside
Battled the creatures that sigh in the night
The harder I try the louder they get
Hope becomes something I come to resent

Imprisoned in my safe seclusion
Lost inside my self delusion
Isolation and confusion
Never finding absolution

A prism with no light will never glow
No vivid colors are let free to grow
I lost my light long ago
Where it went I do not know…

Written by- Sandra Hedin
April 24, 2008

Thanks guys!

I was in a horrible marriage, and I don't know how to get over being afraid to make the same mistakes again? How do I allow myself to trust again?

Thanks, guys! I appreciate it! Thanks for the poem, Daniel. Take care, everyone!

**Dreams Of Blue**
A white fog comes in off a blue sea
An alligator passes and grins at me
I walk on a beach of pure white sand
A rain storm comes in to pelt the land
I let the droplets roll over my skin
Breathe in the scent from a tropical wind
The storm leaves, the clouds depart
I sit in the sand and slow my heart
I watch the tide go in and out
Watch colorful birds flying about
I love the feeling of this place
Cozy inside isolations embrace
Love and anger are not worries here
Everything seems calm and clear
The cause of my pain is lost in the tide
In the seas endless rhythm of gasps and sighs
The sea never changes, it’s always there
A little refuge where I can repair…

Written by- Sandra Hedin
April 7, 2008

**A Shimmer In The Hole**
I take a look inside myself
Afraid of what I’ll find
A ting glint might still be there
To shiver down my spine
A tingling sensation
A ray of light’s in view
Something different startles me
I know not what to do

Do I let the walls come down and see what might come through?
Have I healed myself enough to really start anew?
A little bit of hope and a healthy dose of fear
I’m terrified of letting just a little light in here…

I’m coming through the worst of times
I didn’t want to breathe
Praying that this time the pain will be the end of me
A little ray of light breaks through
I know not for how long
Hope is such a fleeting thing
It seems so very wrong

Do I let the walls come down and see what might come through?
Have I healed myself enough to really start anew?
A little bit of hope and a healthy dose of fear
I’m terrified of letting just a little light in here…

A tiny bit of glitter
In a land so full of dark
A little spot of brightness
After I’ve fallen apart
A tiny bit of shimmering
Plodding through the days
Can that little bit of light get me through the fray?
Written by-Sandra Hedin
March 11, 2008

**Cascading Out**
A step into light, then back to dark
Nothing much left to kindle a spark
Floating on hope; torn like the tide
Bracing myself for the beating of time

Another day; another weight
Another question of my fate
More uncertainty and more of the same
With nothing of reason and nothing to blame…

Suffocating nothingness, a barrage of emotions
Cascades of everything get out of proportion
Too much to accept; and more comes to pass
All that is hope slips from my grasp

Another day that I die some more
Left more broken then before
More uncertainty and more of the same
With nothing of reason and nothing to blame…

My soul is trapped in a crumbling shell
I must have been born to be put in this cell
The past has been teacher; the rest is unknown
Softness and light become nothing but stone

Another day that I die some more
Left more broken then before
Another day; another weight
Another question of my fate
More uncertainty and more of the same
With nothing of reason and nothing to blame
The future I wanted seems laughable now
The terror inside drowns everything out…
Written by- Sandra Hedin
March 1, 2008

I love books and reading! I love Stephen King too! I am supposed to be getting his new book in the mail! Can't wait for it!

I am just getting so bored with a lot of things, but the crap on tv has really been boring to me lately. It's all the same crap, you know?
Anyone else agree? Feel free to say so!

Later! Take care!
_Sandy_

Heath and Brad Renfro...What is going on man????

I didn't like it. I barely paid attention. I think they need to leave movies alone and not make them into lame shows. Sorry, just my opinion.

Yeah, I agree it gets VERY tedious after the first auditions. I don't even care who ends up winning at the end of the show.

I also agree that network shows- the ones on NBC, ABC, FOX, CBS...- mostly suck.

So, is anyone else going to watch the season premiere of "Idol" tonight? I always love watching the crazy auditions! Crazy people are always entertaining! he he...

Hmmm...Thanks guys! I may see it, or I may just wait to rent it. I do like Depp a lot.

Has anyone seen that movie yet? I am very unsure about seeing it myself. My sister saw it and said it was great.

Very good movie! Very well done.

I used to like that show, now I feel it's gone way down hill. I can't watch it anymore.