Any ideas?

Well, to know what I need help with, you have to know what happened, lol. I went to a bar couple of weeks ago, and met some of my customers from work, we didnt plan to meet, they just showed up. Never hung out with them before, well, One of them, Ryan we'll call him, talked to me more. We hung out all night, and everything was great, but then they got me to drink, and I know I only had 2 1/2 beers, but I'm seriously a light weight, and I got drunk, I told them I was only buzzed, but I think they knew better, lol. Ne ways, I ended up going home with Ryan. We hung out, and he kept asking me if I was talking to anyone, as in guys, I kept telling him no, not knowing where he was going with it. Well, short story, we slept together, not full intercourse, cuz we didnt have a condom, which is also confusing, cuz I was so drunk that I didnt care, but he did. Usually guys dont care, but he did, which I didnt know if to take that as a bad sign. Even right before we started, we were laying in bed and he asked me again if I was talking to ne one. -guys- We did it, slept, played around the next moring, he had to go to work, I fell asleep. We met up again last week and had actual sex, gave me his number cuz he didnt call me, and told me to call on Monday. But him and his ex might try to work things out. I knew that was a bad sign. lol. Well, Monday comes around and he calls me. Just to tell me that him and his ex are trying to work things out. I told him that I was happy for him, but I wanted to scream. Then he invited me to the bar this week, which I'm pretty sure was a pitty invite. I dont know what to do. I am also pretty sure that he's not trying to get with his ex, it was just a way of saying, "I'm just not that into you." What do I do? I feel like I want to cry, but the tears just wont come. I'm just grateful that I didnt love him, or was in love with him. But I did like him. I liked hanging out with him. How can I get him back? Of course not right away, pfft, I am going to lose weight before I plan on seeing him again.

Any ideas?

Well, to know what I need help with, you have to know what happened, lol. I went to a bar couple of weeks ago, and met some of my customers from work, we didnt plan to meet, they just showed up. Never hung out with them before, well, One of them, Ryan we'll call him, talked to me more. We hung out all night, and everything was great, but then they got me to drink, and I know I only had 2 1/2 beers, but I'm seriously a light weight, and I got drunk, I told them I was only buzzed, but I think they knew better, lol. Ne ways, I ended up going home with Ryan. We hung out, and he kept asking me if I was talking to anyone, as in guys, I kept telling him no, not knowing where he was going with it. Well, short story, we slept together, not full intercourse, cuz we didnt have a condom, which is also confusing, cuz I was so drunk that I didnt care, but he did. Usually guys dont care, but he did, which I didnt know if to take that as a bad sign. Even right before we started, we were laying in bed and he asked me again if I was talking to ne one. -guys- We did it, slept, played around the next moring, he had to go to work, I fell asleep. We met up again last week and had actual sex, gave me his number cuz he didnt call me, and told me to call on Monday. But him and his ex might try to work things out. I knew that was a bad sign. lol. Well, Monday comes around and he calls me. Just to tell me that him and his ex are trying to work things out. I told him that I was happy for him, but I wanted to scream. Then he invited me to the bar this week, which I'm pretty sure was a pitty invite. I dont know what to do. I am also pretty sure that he's not trying to get with his ex, it was just a way of saying, "I'm just not that into you." What do I do? I feel like I want to cry, but the tears just wont come. I'm just grateful that I didnt love him, or was in love with him. But I did like him. I liked hanging out with him. How can I get him back? Of course not right away, pfft, I am going to lose weight before I plan on seeing him again.

How can you get him back? Jessica, darling, you never had him.

You had a fling. The fling was a two parter since you didn't have a condom the first time, but you had a fling.

Your weight should have no bearing on whether you pursue a guy! Don't allow that in your mind.

He is not the guy to pursue!

The key to any guy's heart is video games.

Well, to know what I need help with, you have to know what happened, lol. I went to a bar couple of weeks ago, and met some of my customers from work, we didnt plan to meet, they just showed up. Never hung out with them before, well, One of them, Ryan we'll call him, talked to me more. We hung out all night, and everything was great, but then they got me to drink, and I know I only had 2 1/2 beers, but I'm seriously a light weight, and I got drunk, I told them I was only buzzed, but I think they knew better, lol. Ne ways, I ended up going home with Ryan. We hung out, and he kept asking me if I was talking to anyone, as in guys, I kept telling him no, not knowing where he was going with it. Well, short story, we slept together, not full intercourse, cuz we didnt have a condom, which is also confusing, cuz I was so drunk that I didnt care, but he did. Usually guys dont care, but he did, which I didnt know if to take that as a bad sign. Even right before we started, we were laying in bed and he asked me again if I was talking to ne one. -guys- We did it, slept, played around the next moring, he had to go to work, I fell asleep. We met up again last week and had actual sex, gave me his number cuz he didnt call me, and told me to call on Monday. But him and his ex might try to work things out. I knew that was a bad sign. lol. Well, Monday comes around and he calls me. Just to tell me that him and his ex are trying to work things out. I told him that I was happy for him, but I wanted to scream. Then he invited me to the bar this week, which I'm pretty sure was a pitty invite. I dont know what to do. I am also pretty sure that he's not trying to get with his ex, it was just a way of saying, "I'm just not that into you." What do I do? I feel like I want to cry, but the tears just wont come. I'm just grateful that I didnt love him, or was in love with him. But I did like him. I liked hanging out with him. How can I get him back? Of course not right away, pfft, I am going to lose weight before I plan on seeing him again.

You are his "booty call" nothing more...
not trying to be mean ... but it sounds like you are his fall back if is something else doesn't pan out

I already knew that. But is there a way of being something other than booty call?

There is something wrong with me! I want to cry, I can feel the tears, they're right there! But none show up. It's like a hair is holding them back. Why can't I cry?

There is something wrong with me! I want to cry, I can feel the tears, they're right there! But none show up. It's like a hair is holding them back. Why can't I cry?

don't waste your tears on him... don't even try he isn't worth it

It isn't just about him, it's everything. I want to cry about everything wrong with me.

Well, to know what I need help with, you have to know what happened, lol. I went to a bar couple of weeks ago, and met some of my customers from work, we didnt plan to meet, they just showed up. Never hung out with them before, well, One of them, Ryan we'll call him, talked to me more. We hung out all night, and everything was great, but then they got me to drink, and I know I only had 2 1/2 beers, but I'm seriously a light weight, and I got drunk, I told them I was only buzzed, but I think they knew better, lol. Ne ways, I ended up going home with Ryan. We hung out, and he kept asking me if I was talking to anyone, as in guys, I kept telling him no, not knowing where he was going with it. Well, short story, we slept together, not full intercourse, cuz we didnt have a condom, which is also confusing, cuz I was so drunk that I didnt care, but he did. Usually guys dont care, but he did, which I didnt know if to take that as a bad sign. Even right before we started, we were laying in bed and he asked me again if I was talking to ne one. -guys- We did it, slept, played around the next moring, he had to go to work, I fell asleep. We met up again last week and had actual sex, gave me his number cuz he didnt call me, and told me to call on Monday. But him and his ex might try to work things out. I knew that was a bad sign. lol. Well, Monday comes around and he calls me. Just to tell me that him and his ex are trying to work things out. I told him that I was happy for him, but I wanted to scream. Then he invited me to the bar this week, which I'm pretty sure was a pitty invite. I dont know what to do. I am also pretty sure that he's not trying to get with his ex, it was just a way of saying, "I'm just not that into you." What do I do? I feel like I want to cry, but the tears just wont come. I'm just grateful that I didnt love him, or was in love with him. But I did like him. I liked hanging out with him. How can I get him back? Of course not right away, pfft, I am going to lose weight before I plan on seeing him again.

i use to read nancy drew stories

Randomness, it's gravy.