this is not advice, just ramblings, but influenced by an e-mail


when you're hurtin, you're hurtin. s'ok to hurt. don't get self pity and hurt mixed up. sheer beauty alone can hurt....even to look at, when there's feelings behind that, it's even worse. i'd rather go to war than feel that again. at least with war, i know what i'm up against. it's different today, than the past. everyone has changed. no more snail mail and waiting weeks for a reply to help you through another month of anxious waiting for a cross-country, or overseas lover...forever..... but part of that is passion. passion's different now, and so is marriage....this is a small percentage of pure good. MOST marriages were miserable then,(not all) it's just that most stuck it out, way past the time when they should have left.... now, marriage is a trump card. just like the" i'm the man, and this is how it goes" to, you've upset me, no more sex, and you're on the couch, or out the door, and we might talk later, i'll think about it. i have patience for none of this normal everyday happening, because it seems to be nothing but control now, and getting what they want(both sexes). not the passion of yesteryear, when you wouldn't think of leaving your best friend. "male and female issues" should never even play into it.....what a shame....but it always kinda has. it's just that the real true love with no stipulations is lost forever. it's all boundries now, stipulative boundries. there's always moral boundries, and those should be understood, but are now lost in the shuffle with legal boundries, because true honesty seems to be a dead issue, and justification for one's means has taken over, so it's a sided truth...a point of view, instead of real truth. what a shame!!! only people can change this, and it'll only be individual people that can see this and make the change. i've seen a lot in my very incredibly short life-span, that i hope lasts another ten-twenty-or thirty years, and i'm really worried about how we are relating. it seems that the games and drama that needs not be there, for either self-protection for games, and sheer ego and, or, boredom for drama, that are taking mainstream over HONEST courting. everyone is categorized to feel more comfortable, and it's working. i've never fit into a "category", and people never feel quite comfortable with me, so it doesn't work with me in the least, and i've become merely an "immortal observer" or atleast it feels that way (and i wouldn't trade it for the world) with my infantesimle bit of life experience, i practically know nothing to help another, but it's an honor to try....the more i learn, the less i know, and am humbled at every turn. these reflections, are not advice, merely the observations and gathered facts that "i appear" to see.

I've lost some good friends in war.

And I've lost some women in relationships.

If I had to do one or the other over again.

I'd rather it be the women.

The Owl gettin deep? whoa

Hey man,,greta to see ya greater to read ya....lol

I really liked this you wrote,,all of it,,but this stood out tonight


it's all boundries now, stipulative boundries. there's always moral boundries, and those should be understood, but are now lost in the shuffle with legal boundries, because true honesty seems to be a dead issue

I LOVE THIS PARAGRAGH Bro...

Hope alls good, and your not an ice cube there yet,,

Sorry man,,lately I have been a post killer.....shzt happens..

I will fleee,,,,,,,,,,

i agree in some instances

hey Peccy, good to see you bro! it's been a great while!

had A phone call, and was tied up for an hour, and thanks for the compliment! you're always welcome in my vacinity, where-ever i may be. you are the finest of friends to me, be safe man

thankya thankya!