i thought i was confused
as there was a guy that i was kinda seeing up untill resontly which i broke up with him for he was nothing but a workaholic and thought his work was more important than his own family
(he has 3 kids from a previous marriage) yes hes divorced
i felt in some ways he was cheating but i realized that wasent so. he was in a degree by cheating himself by not being honest with himself as having a relationship so he would hid a block from everyone around..

well any how there was this guy that i met about 11yrs ago
hes a skinny dude (my daughter called him a white urkle)
he has a very loving heart. and the last time i had actually seen him if i recall right was about 6yrs ago. i had just moved and he came over for a few and left
well i found out after he had met someone and he didnt want me to know... but any how wayy prior when i had met him i had gotten out of a relationship with this guy that i was with for a little over 3yrs. and we had been talking off and on. well fred invited me to his house on new yrs eve and if i would had just answered the dang phone before i had left with fred than there wouldnt had been no problem.. for the ex bf called to let me know he was coming back.
which i didnt know untill after i had came home the next morning
and there was a message on the machine. i was home maybe 15min and he pops in... i was cornered and i didnt know what to do... i know i hurt fred and i tried to appolgize to him for i knew how he felt towards me..
resontly over the past several months he would send me jokes and little notes. and last nite it was a shock he actually sent me his phone number(no hes not with that other lady any more) i ended up talking to him for a little bit last nite and today when i got home from dialysis..
fred had always been there for me.. even when i got into a short term abusive relationship fred was there for me....like i said fred and i wernt really together but he made me feel like i was someone
a actuall human
and i told him tonight that i was sorry for my mistake. and he said its a learning lesson we all go through
fred is the type to be a joker for hes the type that would hide his feelings when something goes wrong and laughs about it
thats just him... he used to have a raindeer untop of his car every yr for xmas you should had seen the peoples face it was funny

deep dpwn yea i would love to get together with fred.. we all have faults... but i know how he treats woman..

as for the other guy.. well i have to say to myself hes not worth the waiting.

i have several letters that fred sent me
i still also have a music of love songs he made for me
and i have a little teddy bear he gave me one yr for valentines day
i had this one baloon that was made out of a heartshape and it had a red flower inside. had that for yrs(yea it deflated but it was cool) finally threw it away awhile back.... i think he was suprised that i still had those........

Honey, just follow your heart. Maybe Freds changed some since you were last together. What can it hurt to go out & talk? If not you'll always wonder what might have been. Good luck!!!

I'm sorry you are having trouble. All relationships are a challenge. Follow your heart, and I hope everything works out!

changed? him hes the same old sweet person that i met ages ago as his sense of humor over the phone is the same old fred

I apologize. I got the two guys mixed up for a minute & reread your post. I still say get together & go out, talk & see what happens!!!

follow your heart and head. Don't go for more than you are ready for. Try going out for coffee with him and see if it's still there for you. Just keep it casual and see where it goes from there