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today, i went with wet food
i said, just keep and dont give up
i will help you
she let me stroke head
tomorrow morning i will go again
she he knows my voice
i think my reason to be in life is to help these speechless ones..

her intestines all all out
like a sausage hanging out from her back
cant believe nobody saw it
they saw and ignored

my Piko, which i saved, turned to life is i think is now deAD.
he wouldnt disappear all of a sudden like that
i gave him a very loving life
now this one, i want him to live and i will take care of him
maybe a her
she knows me, folows my voice..

it was thursday i saww him or her
i just after that in 15 minutes time ran to animal aid (my neighbour)
they said okay but operation on Monday
i pushed. no, on Monday

just walking back from shopping with mom
bags on my hand, i just looked and sawww this cat..
i dont knoww why i am the one always seing these things
intestines out of his bottom

all Russians i've met were very good and friendly.

and today we met for the last time with Sonya and Mark babies, and the families altogether. We had dinner together. i watched the babies eat and laugh and cry and play. They are going back a day later.Hope everything will be okay for them. I will miss them so much..

Sonya and mark going to moscow on 9th
i hope - if they cannot stay in there - they will come back to here - nowhere else
of course my first wish for them to be safe with their families at home
but if not, i hope they choose here to stay at.

came back home
changed
and out for dinner again at our other fav place
such a zipped day
good one.

after 1,5 hours, we decided to join my mom and dad
and we had some time together at there
sonya's mom and dad are so funny
i would never imagine Russian people could be of so much fun
they crack us laughing! :d
and my lil Sonya is amazing
so amazing
she is my lil Einstein!

like the previous sat i woke up with a message from Sonya's family, we will be at this place, join us
yayyyy

mom and dad left me there, they went to our fav place for breakfast.

i played with my Sonya, we blowed bubbles! we played at the kids play area which is huge!

my friends moscow, they say there are similar ones there but not as huge as this one
i was amazed as well when i entered the place today


running competition in one area
the kids' area is out of this world.

I packed my beach bag
Going to blue lagoon in the morning.

Blue Lagoon..
that is something else..
living here, how i ignored going there for all the last years
the beautiful green and turquoise meet in sea..
you cannot stop watching that sea..
the sand
the water is still warm
the forests around and the blue sky above you
if there is a heaven on earth, that is blue lagoon.
i promised myself to go there in the next 10 days on my own.

then we went for a meal altogether
it was a very peceful and nice place
babies slept
we ate, drank, chatted
then babies woke up and again play time for us
we played hide and seek
we danced with no music but we danced
and we enjoyed it very much
dad and sonya's dad chatted
everything was like a dream for me..
it was more than i dreamt - because i dreamt so much about seing Sonya and Mark again
it was ... more than i could imagine..

soon after that, the same games we used to play together, and Mark joined them as well..
she was giggling and laughing with that man laughter again ahahhaa
we played throwing stones to the sea
knocking stones together and laugh at the voices
eating pie together - she gave me the smashed pieces in her lil hand

today we met w Sonya and Mark's families, them with my family at Blue Lagoon
It was like a dream being with them again
not seing me for 3 weeks Sonya started crying badly!! lol
contrarily Mark was smiling - normally he would be moody :))
she was fine after i gave the the pie i took with me for them (mom made it), and that helped a lot :))

they are..

Sonya.. :)))
when she laughes, that is horrible as a big man!!
she laughes "ahahahhaha" big man voice haha
she is my love

we will meet wit my lil sonya and Mark on saturday
i will bake a cake for them
i will play with Sonya
Goshh i miss her so much!!

at JoJo Rabbit..