I hope that people are still posting on this topic
I was married for 26 years and have been a widow for 2. I am still having problems adjusting. My husband died suddenly,thankfully my boys were in their 20's and I was able to find a good paying job but, the loneliness is almost untolerable at times.
I have girlfriends but, eventually they return home to their families.
I just don't know if life will ever improve. I feel I am taking all the steps I need to do. Maybe this is the best that it gets.