I am not perfect (I no I am not the best looking guy) but seriously why is it so hard to find a real relationship with a guy?

I sometime Just get the feeling guys are only interested in one thing (sex) seriously am I just living in a dream world? to want to have an actual Boyfriend to actually get close to him, make sure he nos how I feel about him
even to see a future with him

and where do I find this guy? all clubs seem to be full of who can (shag) who. please someone tell me you been in a gay relationship that working out.

sorry for moaning all :(