This is long it's kinda a love letter I never gave to my boyfriend, this is back before I was to scared to tell him I love him (however I still haven't said it to his face yet, I’ve just said it in sms's and msn's.)

It's hand written should I give it to him?

Adored, Wanted Protected, Cared for
In his arms I feel safe, safer then I have ever felt in my entire life, like nothing would even try to harm me.
I climb atop him, looking into his eyes, his mind willing, but body not able. I wrap my arms around him laying my head against his chest, listening to his beating heart, feeling so close to him and so far away from the rest of the world. It's just him, my centre my ground.
His hands never leave my skin stroking rubbing, I can almost feel them when he isn't here. His strong arm around me as I sleep, his hand in mind as we walk. His kisses many more then I deserve on my forehead, would be childish if not for the sweetest intentions. I miss him, from when he leaves the room to when he has to go home. I long to kiss him again.
I'm confused, his attention and caring is nothing like anything that I have ever experienced before. I'm not sure how I'm to react I don’t want to be too hasty and say things I’m not sure I fully understand.
All I know is that I don’t want it to ever end, this is the happiest I have ever been in my life. It’s almost like his life's mission is to ensure my happiness, when I’m sad he is trying to make me smile or laugh. He's always going above and beyond to make me fulfilled and happy. Surprises me daily with his sweetness. I need to learn to be more accepting of his sweetness, sometimes I feel it’s all too much, and I find myself refusing it I shouldn't. I'm thinking of how I can make it up to him every minute of every day, and I think just being me would be enough, sometimes it's not enough.
He's an old fashioned gentleman, pays for ever thing opens doors and hold me hand as I get out of a car. He's amazing sweet unbelievable honest and so special to me.
There is only one question I ask myself daily. Am I falling in love? Cos if I am then my last relationship was a lie I never felt like this with my ex. Sure I said the words but I doubt that I ever felt anything like this. It's even hard to write this all down, I worry he might read it and part of me doesn't care. I think I’m falling in love with you.
Help me I don’t want to say anything I don’t want to pressure him into anything. So I’m waiting for him to say something, which I think I see in his eyes every time. His eyes make me melt his kisses disarm me and his touch makes me feel like the only person in the world in his heart. Maybe I’m just missing him like always. But I’ve been biting my tongue for a long time now not to say I Love You. I'm waiting for the perfect time which to tell him how I feel. Every time we are together you take me to heaven every time I'm with you I’m getting less shy which is hard for me. You make me feel beautiful sexy and wanted never have felt that before and you don't even have to tell me I just know. You make me feel it without words. If you told me all the time it would seem to have less meaning. You surprise me with complements and make me smile, you’re cheeky and cute and adorable even when you are angry. Sometime your anger scares me but I think it comes from a place in your heart that wants things perfect and not to disappoint me. I have never been disappointed angry with or hurt by you and you are perfect to me. So perfect I pinch myself wondering if it a beautiful dream.
I dream about you and almost feel you cuddling me as I’m half asleep. I wake up alittle and your not here makes me miss you more. I can't wait to see you again I miss you heaps Sunday night is the worst waiting a whole week. Every night I finally fall asleep is another night closer to seeing you again. You truly are my angel, my knight in shinning armour and my saving grace because without you here for me I don't know where I would be right now. You've been slowly pulling me though and making me see there is a light at the end of the tunnel. My future whatever that might be is bright because of you. I'm taking 'this' with you one day at a time and no pressure no expectations. Just happy for every wonderful second I get with you. I have never been happier, more fulfilled, cared for, protected, wanted, amazed and in love in my entire life, this is the affect you have on my heart, which is still healing slowly after everything and every day with you heals me alittle more. I spent the last years feeling like what I was receiving was all I deserved and you have made me realise how much more I deserve. You make me ask more out of life. You make me think about the future and what I want which I have never thought about before. I have put my life on hold for a long time and never though about what I wanted to do, and now I’m realising how much I let control of my life and future go, and now I want to work towards making my life into what I want now.
Sweetheart I Love You
Love Jackie