"and we might break up tomorrow lol you never know plus sweetie your 18 you need somone who is younger more at your level but i would still love to meet you and maybe even f*** you"

this is really stupid, Is this all I am to people, just a moment? What happened to the promises made? If anyone wants to help me out, please do, I really am just kinda broken right now..... I feel so freakin stupid for opening up again...

"[I'll take] cute cuddling and kissing pictures with you :) "
"...ill drive and take some pictures with you "

the one thing that meant a lot to me,

"and you can get attached all you want <3 "

such naivety, and this is what I get, Im learning, Im tryin to, but just screw it, I'm off to practicing drums or something for a bit

If anyone really wants to help please do

Is there more of an explaination??

Sweetie they're obviously not right for you.. Move on and keep ya head up

Help with what? I'm trying to figure out what the problem is!

Apparently this is an online thing? You should never get too emotionally involved with someone you haven't really met.

If you want help I think you might need some brutal truth.

"this is really stupid, Is this all I am to people, just a moment? What happened to the promises made? If anyone wants to help me out, please do, I really am just kinda broken right now..... I feel so freakin stupid for opening up again..."

Based on this I would think you have some past issues and low confidence in yourself. I speak from experience. A large life lesson you need to learn is that you are more than "what you are to others" Once you get to the point where you realize that you can live, laugh, and love, with and without others will things become easier.

Learn that you don't need others to make you happy, you can be happy by yourself, but its nice to have people to share it with.

Thats just what I take from your post. I could be completely off base.

I'm just tired of being used, I hear all these nice things but because I've never really had a relationship, I end up eating it up despite what my head tells me.

My one dream was to finally dance with someone, to take cute pictures, yeah its stupid but its just a dream

and she played off of that, I just got the message a couple of minutes ago, sayin that she just entered a relationship today after saying she would come visit me so we can "make that dream come true" so to say.

I feel so stupid for letting this happen
She was like "well we might break up tomorrow lol you never know plus sweetie your 18 you need somone who is younger more at your level but i would still love to meet you and maybe even f*** you"

I do nothing but give, Yeah i keep myself in tact so I am safe, but, I am just the giving type,

my heads just in a rush, sorry folks =[

In what way was she using you?

she picked at me emotionally so she could just satisfy her own sexual needs then move on

were your sexual needs unsatisfied?

thats the thing, I don't have sexual needs lol
I focus more on the relationship aspect, and am more about gaining the heart rather than physical things

and yet you had sex with her.

no, we never made it to that point
i choose to keep my virginity... weird for an 18 year old guy i know, but i keep it safe

thats why im sad, she wanted nothing more than a one time stand after telling me to "getting attached is okay"

I must have misunderstood. You said she used you to satisfy her sexual needs and yet you never had sex with her.

well yes, her last message to me was "but we can still f***" at least to that degree, I wont display the whole message but that was the jist

and to me that hurts just a bit, I guess its because I really don't think of sex at all really.