Just posting a random thought in my head, let me know what you think. Fair warning, this might be a little long, and filled with grammar and spelling errors, but I have always been bad with words, I am better at speaking through my guitar's. Read on, it will (hopefully) make sence.

I play my bass guitar at the church I go to every Sunday. Lately it has come across my attention that the band (usually) listens to me more than the music director, (which is besides the point, but I am just trying to paint a picture here. )

As we get our music we are going to be playing that upcoming Sunday, I notice that the piano player usually knows these songs by name as some if not alot of them are played on the christian raido station alot I would guess.

Me personally I have never heard most of these songs, and I end up learning about 4-6 new songs a week. Sometimes I bring my acoustic guitar to play the song how I think it should be played, but I always make it a point to avoid hearing the radio edit version of the song. Every time I do hear the radio edit version of the song, I feel as if when I am on stage worshiping God as I know how. I end up feeling like I am only imitating someone else and the music isn't coming from me and my heart.

Usually by the time I am done, I get many compliments, but I usually try to avoid them as to not let my head get big (well, too much bigger XD)

Some have told me I should stop trying to put on a show, but I am honestly not trying to put on a show, espically for other people, I am up there using a gift God gave me to give back to him.

Am I over thinking this? Am I going about this the right way? I mean, God gave me the gift of music, I will not lie on that one, which is why on Sunday worship I give god everything I have to offer, all my effort goes into playing my little heart out.

EDIT: just fixing the few spelling and grammar errors I did find.

ROCK ON MAN! Do waht you do and don't let anyone get in the way of it

Keep on doing what you do, focus on Him and He will lift you up.

O jeez. When you are filled with the holy spirit, you should express it.


Kick their butts.

Let It rip!!

where do u think that negativity is coming from: well, not from God-- He knows your heart better than you do. Churches are so different than they were a few years ago, and sometime it is necessary to move to another location. I am not a "church Hopper", but, I did leave a church for a similar reason, it was a very good decision-- ask God to direct you and He will. How awesome to play for HIM!!

Rasmus:

The fact that you're even questioning your motivation, means you are taking the right approach & attitude into your part worship. It's a good thing to step back & do some self-evaluation. It helps our heads on straight. Also, find someone that you trust to share so that you can vent if needed & allow them to critique your attitude s well.
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PS- keep on praisin' God, dude.