I'm standing here looking at yesterday
It keeps creeping up on me today
Staring at the sky wondering why i feel this way
Mad,sad,angry and scared
In love,in lust, i'm turning to dust
These haunting thoughts and messed up memories
Keep on creeping up on me...breaking me
What was never really was....love
What i've found is love as sweet as the softest sound
Yet i can't believe he really loves me
Afraid he'll cheat,afraid he'll lie and say goodbye
All the while really knowing he never would
His heart is honest pure and good
And yet it keeps creeping up on me
Those haunting hurtful memories......
Of past pain and lies,left alone to cry

Great words Jen, sometimes we spend to much time on the past and bad memories, and we don't allow ourselves to be loved by that special someone in our life today.