I know its a strange quote but at 44 i seem to have put life on pause because it just doesnt seem to have any feeling to it people are less caring for fellow people unless its for show an familys are a war zone no matter whos family you visit. i used to look for a female to visit with but never feel close as most dont show there true self but just the one the public sees .so i work an pay the bills with no rights at the work place at all just hang on because it pays the bills .got two surgerys coming up the next yr one close by gonna be interesting gastric bypass.have to do it before i can get the umbilical hernia repaired from the butcher job the last dr did on me. so i cant lift anything much or do hikes to lose wt as the adominol muscles were cut all the heck to many surgerys. so its just me or does 40 suck way worse than the 30 s lol.