Well I hope that I can be helpful.
In your picture, a person cannot see your eyes and the eyes
are the window to the soul. Change your picture to one with
a full face and a nice smile!
You say "Life is too painful to enjoy" well to be honest sounds
like you need a shrink....maybe you should list some of the things
you enjoy doing for example reading watching movies going swimming
fishing shopping just to name a few .
You are too young to be so hopeless....again another suggestion is
maybe you should volenteer to help someone that needs help that truely makes you feel so good.
O.k. hope this helps Hang tough Deb