So I

The wind’s draft was cold
so I
closed the door
and darkened
your words
because they hurt so much
and I needed to hide
from the world
as I tried to understand

I wanted to be
more than just a moment
more than just a passing memory
while you waited
for a different tomorrow
at the expense of my hopes
so I
sheltered my heart within these four walls of loneliness

And this place
this quiet abode
doesn’t feel like home anymore
though it’s still similar to yesterday
and the laughter before then
so I
dreamed of then as I tried to understand
now