Do you often dream that his eyes are those of a falling angel complicated by life’s heart aches; but driven to find the missing pieces that he is so dearly lacking? Is he satisfied with the opportunities he has refused...am I?

Who am I to say that he is mine; almost wish I didn’t miss him all the time, because now I find myself falling, and dreaming he will catch me, and keep me close to his heart. I promised myself the time would come where I would distance myself from this love, but realizing I cannot retract my feelings now...unless he releases me first. I find it impossible to let go now; maybe this is what he wants!?

I catch a glimse of the future when my mind is up in the clouds; it is surreal, indefinite, collected, and fullfilled. If he sees this too, I do not know; I dare not ask in fear that I am alone, and that these ridiculous dreams I have are following all too quickly. But I’ll be faithful to his heart, true to his eyes, and always just a step behind.

3-26-08 ShyKBear

i think you should tell him to cram it and move on...please tell me he didnt die and i have just put my foot in my mouth.

He didn't die...just thoughts I have...can't keep them all cooped up...I'd drive myself nuts...have to tell ya'll how I feel on the inside if I can't express it to him.