Do u know why until now
I cannot trust anyone
who I communicate in the
instant message,
unless I peg them right
in the board?

Do u know why until now
I only prefer to get
to know people in the board
instead of instant message?

Do u know why I turn off
my instant messaging?

Because, I do not want to
be a puppet.

Because, I do not want to
kiss anyone's a&&.

Because, I do not want to
be compelled, or be forced
to do something that I do
not want.

Because, I do not want
flattery in instant message
that does not match with
what is in the forum.

Because, it is important for
me to get to know someone
in the forum,
not in instant message.

Because, again let me
repeat myself,
I am not ready for
anything yet.
I am not ready to love & be loved.




My life goes on in endless song
above earth's lamentations,
I hear the real, though far-off hymn
that hails a new creation.

Through all the tumult and the strife
I hear it's music ringing,
It sounds an echo in my soul.
How can I keep from singing?

While though the tempest loudly roars,
I hear the truth, it liveth.
And though the darkness 'round me close,
songs in the night it giveth.

http://youtu.be/o_5-Kf2CrLchttps://youtu.be/-RHt3ElEvHQ

if u are the type who likes watching
& observing rainbows from time to
time to give color in some days
when your mood is dreary & restless,
do not resent the sunlight & rain,
always be reminded, that the reason u are
still able to see rainbows is because of
those two.



The Climb -Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah.

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on.

And when Ms. Kristi shares her experiences
in the forum as her way to encourage/uplift
and give warmth & reminds us of compassion,
Ms. Soufie encourage us to be sensible & use
common sense.
She has this impact to me like-
"hey!this is how I understand your post
Be smart or have a backbone or straighten up!"

And u get to smile & start to get curious , why what happen?
She has this way of encouraging me to read posts & normally
threads I dont bother to read, to keep up of what has been
happening on the board

Airplanes - Lisa Loeb

I grew up where throwing rocks in canyons is not allowed.
I grew up where growing up makes me awkward and proud.
I grew up were it was a difficult drive to the airport,
And I hope you have a good ride, cause my mother, you know,
She doesn't like to fly.
I grew up were it was a difficult drive to the airport,
But I grew up.
School, school, swimming pool,
I walk barefoot home from school.
School, school.

And mother, that's a hard word, the things that you're leaving,
The things that you're missing, the things you don't know.
And father, that's a hard word, the things that you're needing,
The things that you're missing, the things that don't show.
How happy do you have to be to be happy?
How sad do you have to be to be sad?
Do you have to be sad?
Do you have to be?
I grew up where throwing rocks in canyons is not allowed.

For me these movies reminded me of how people always differ
in perspectives.A three-dimensional contradictions for me,
of human nature.


1.Dragon Blade (2015) of Jacky Chan


2.The Company Men of Tommy Lee Jones


3.Olympus Has Fallen of Gerard Butler


4.The Pelican Brief of Julia Roberts

Thank u so much.

No.

Thank u so.

I cant guess who the next poster.

?

Be proud of who u are.
of what u are.
of what u have.

It may not be enough for others.
But it should be enough,
to honestly say,
life is always worth living for.



When your day is long ... and the night
The night is yours alone
When you think you've had enough... of this life, well hang on.

Don't let yourself go
Cause everybody cries
And everybody hurts... sometimes.

Sometimes everything is wrong.
Now it's time to sing along.
When your day is night alone (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go (hold on)
When you're sure you've had too much... of this life, well hang on.

http://youtu.be/_GIT-ee4Pzw

On : Just be yourself. You do not need to be like everyone else.
You do not need to change for everyone else.

Nah.
if we, "just bystanders & spectators"
of american politics grasp the fact that
a 1 administration cannot resolve nor
eliminate the issue of

"nearly 20 trillion dollars in debt and hundreds of trillions in unfunded liability debt"

how much more the american citizens?
Feel good policies in the face of legislative apathy eh?

Maybe I am just dense, but I believe your president
was not ask to resign because of
something that was just carried over to his administration.

"He just took over.." and made the best/worst he could on what
is handed over.

Reality induced wise is too strong for me in this,
Definitive test to moral issues maybe.
He is the POTUS.
His actions & decisions reflects Democracy & your country.



Advocating a bipartisan view
if I may say:

What the world Sir need is a
POTUS that will act, decides that
reflects:

Strength. Courage & Conscientiousness


Not a senator, that reflects:

"hierarchies that orchestrate its way of life and its worldview and indeed in everything

that gives cultural identity, direction and meaning to people's everyday lives"


Just Saying.

With all due respect Sir,
while I can say that this is an
incisive rebuttal & answers
some of the controversial
& hard-nosed questions of
the Obama Administration-

one cannot help but wonder why-
it has the same tinged
as political legitimacy equating
to moral authority?

Did I just hear an echo of sentiments
with exact ring in the Bush Administration?
I am talking about your nation's
underlying moral precepts-

This is a serious enough issue to warrant a
strong hand for a political leader-
we are talking about lives.
We are not talking about political
maneuverings & strategic foreign policy-
the other side are killing people Sir.

Whether they praise God or not,
Whether they do it for religion or politics
the fact is, they are killing innocent people.

This should be at least be addressed, even at
the cost of questions in political legitimacy
to foreign policies?




^^^Why this then?

Just wondering Sir.
Why it is more on ideology?
when innocent lives are stake.

by ideology I mean this-
"hierarchically oriented stand-patters as "Rightists" and the egalitarian, we-can-do-better, let's-change-things people as "Leftists?"

The very essence of having a government
is to protect the citizens by
upholding the law & the constitution.
Or does this also evolves with the time?

My question is, would it really be that bad?
I mean if they will track what u are viewing?

Average normal people, actually appreciates,
if it is more convenient and affordable to
watch what we want to view.

Yes, we give up a little of our privacy,
but as long as it is not use to kill people,
hurt innocents,& blow up cities,
For me, I think in a way it has its merit.

Personally, as a bystander from a 3rd world country,
in the light of what is happening,
i am hoping he would resign.

I've read somewhere before that regime change always seems radical
but it is also a conservative impulse.

Just "like other controversial president, it is understandable if
they would make democracy the rhetorical centerpiece of an administration.."

but the question is how far?

the issues your OP discussed are real questions & fears,
based on reality, reflecting a dangerous deterioration of
American Democracy..

Just saying..

1. National Treasure: Book of Secret
of Nicholas Cage

I am an avid fan of Bruce Greenwood,
and for me,it is his character as the POTUS
in this film, that somehow makes the film
unforgettable.

2.The Longest Ride of Scott Eastwood

Everyone with me at the time, this was
shown here in my country, hated this film,
I ended up watching this film alone,
and until now, I am still thankful I chose
to watch this movie instead even if the
ending is so predictable & cliched.

3.Thirteen Days of Kevin Costner

This film is one of the reasons I became
a fan of American Politics.

Acknowledging as being a bipartisan in my
views, somehow this film inculcated in me
a sense of how:

"context is the enemy of gullibility.
The more that people know about a subject,
the more they have mulled it over &
weighted different ideas, the more they
will feel in coming to their own conclusions"

4.The New World of Colin Farrell

I really like how the movie ended the
story of a man & a woman.


The 4 films reminded me of :

"People only see what they are prepared to see"

Because of my being me.

I cannot prove this yet in Mingle,
maybe after a year?
but in the real world,
I always have a different way of seeing things.
I always have different perspective on things.
I always have different understanding of things.

And it always works at my disadvantage.
If I can only see things thru like everyone
else maybe..perhaps maybe I wont be this alone.

& the sad part is, not because of lack of trying,
in fairness, I really tried seeing things on others
perspective, but I end up short.

I do not like to conform, just because everybody is
doing it, the more I will not do it.

I do not like being cornered or being compelled to do it
just because, everybody is doing it because it is okay-
the more I will do my best to not to do it.

The first time I have heard that if "I will not change my
way of seeing things I will end up an old maid" is
from my older brother.


I was so focused back then in maintaining my scholarship in
High School because I do not want to study in a public school
Yes even back then, I am already like this,I am different
instead of just doing what everybody else is doing.

Every girl in my age group in my immediate neighborhood at that time,
either get pregnant,elope, get married to a foreigner thrice
their age, live with their boyfriends, swap boyfriends, and others
go to college.
Yup! I choose scholarship & college.
My math professor said if "I will not change my
way of seeing things I will end up an old maid"

Even in college I failed.
Even if it means so much to me,
I cannot conform.I cannot give in, just because everybody is doing it.
I always find a reason to say, I dont see the need to be like them.

Until I met my ex, I dont see the need to want someone that bad
to change who I am.
Sad thing is, I have realize that even if I changed, my ex family
can never accept me, I will never be good enough.
No matter what I will do, the casualty, will be my ex in the long run,so I walked away.
There are always things that we are not worthy of.

I am such a bad judge of character, one in my long list
of shortcomings,that a La Sallian Brother actually told me
several years ago, that "with the way u see things,
U will enjoy life more in single blessedness,
rather than marriage."
And to think at that time I am already Godless.

See?
And so far, my brothers, math professor & the La Sallian Brother
are right, the men who stimulates my mind & imagination:

-when in private, does not want to hold hands, they want something else.
-when in private they do not want to answer questions,
they rush things, and when I get rushed,
I feel belittled, I feel being looked down as a woman.
I feel disrespected with my views in life.

I have yet to met a man, who stimulates my mind & imagination
that is gentle, considerate & a gentleman,
& who does not take offense when I said,
"lets take it slow, one day at a time"
& who do not connect my every statement with sex.

I have yet to met a man, who stimulates my mind & imagination
that is not abusive, when they are rebuff.

I have yet to met a man, who stimulates my mind & imagination
that has the mind set, that stimulating one's mind is not
even about sex.
It is about encouraging me to think,
challenging me to be enthusiastic in a different perspective
than what I have.

I have yet to met a man, who stimulates my mind & imagination
who say "look here- why wont you think of it this way"-
and mean it,
they always just pretend that they understand me,
then offer something so insulting & demeaning.
As if I do not have those.
As if I do not have more than those.

The sad thing is, I cant even blame them.
The sad thing is, it is wishful thinking to say they are the ones
wrong and I am right.

Reality check wise-

why then it happen all the time?
I can understand if it only happen once or
twice, but it happens all the time.

I think it is really the way
I see & reacted to things.
It is my perspective that makes me not compatible
with anyone.
It is my perspective that always get me into trouble.

Should I change?
Another wishful thinking.
Even if I wanted to, can I really change?
this is who I am.

I might as well accept the fact that there is a big
probability that maybe there are just
people like me destined to die say after another 25 years,
withered, old & wallowing in heavy metal music & pop rock.
Because we are built this way.

Single is not that bad anyway as long as, I am not
force to conform, what everyone else is doing.
As long as I can still be myself,
be proud of what I have become,
I would not mind, very much being different.

Have you ever cried at a movie?


These movies made me cry:


1.The Boy In Striped Pajamas

2.August Rush

3.I Am Sam

4.The Pursuit of Happyness

5.Cast Away of Tom Hanks

Worst eh?
Then u did not look closely Sir.
Stocky.
Not so fit.
Athletic w/ Cellulite.
I stand by that Sir.
To say that I am fit is misleading.
Maybe because I was wearing a black shirt
at that time.
If u have looked more closely, u will see
why I have to work harder in
Seated Pillow Squeeze & Seated Hand Push,
everyday, & curse Wendys Baconator in my mind
while I am holding the Isometric Contraction

Thank u though, that u have remembered my picture:)

^^^ I feel the same way.
Unless it coincides with my rest day,
then I have to go watch a new movie:)

One could not help but be deeply saddened watching & reading the
news of what happened in Paris, France.

One could not help but feel anger & helplessness,
because we could not be there to bring at least a measure
of solace to the victims that are still alive & terrorized
by such abominable event.Those who lost their love ones
who could never yet be comforted until justice is serve.

One can only wonder, how & when can the people that are
affected by such cowardly attacks can feel safe again,
after such obvious well-coordinated, premeditated & synchronized attack.

For this, I cant help but feel exactly the same way as Ingrid Michaelson.
Echoing her sentiments -

"Ingrid Michaelson:
Feeling helpless and very human. My heart is breaking for the people of Paris."

I broke down & went to my John Lennon playlist hahaha,
its been a while-
and I remembered the day I joined in Mingle,
I was listening to this song,
so I might as well share too my first Mingle poem:


Why Are You Here?

Here?
You mean this forum? Mingle 2? or in this world?
Perhaps, we want to brave the world
wide web and be bold...
Or maybe we just want to keep at bay the gnawing cold...

Cold?
You mean physical?emotional? or spiritual coldness?
Whichever it is, the basic antidote is warmth and tenderness...
To even for a few minutes, forget our everyday worries
and unacknowledged sadness,
Is i guess a damn good reason enough to enjoy the Mingle2 madness..




9 Dream - John Lennon

So long ago
Was it in a dream?
Was it just a dream?
I know, yes I know
It seemed so very real
Seemed so real to me

Took a walk down the street
Through the heat whispered trees
I thought I could hear
Hear
Hear
Hear

Somebody call out my name (John)
As it started to rain
Two spirits dancing so strange
Ah! Bowakawa, pousse pousse


Dream, dream away
Magic in the air
Was magic in the air?
I believe, yes I believe
More I cannot say
What more can I say?

On a river of sound
Through the mirror go round, round
I thought I could feel
Feel
Feel
Feel
Music touching my soul
Something warm, sudden cold
The spirit dance was unfolding
Ah! Bowakawa, pousse pousse