not a good day today. felling hurt and confused.

I'm not gonna cry tonite
Hide inside myself,crying to myself
I'm not gonna hide tonite
Hide my fears and falling tears
Let me off this emotional roller coaster
Its making me sick,please let me off quick
Your silence plays a game,you laying blame
I speak my mind
You make me cry
My vulnerabilty makes you angry
I open my heart, you tear it apart
You pull away and then you say.....
You love me.
Ooooh but do you love me
Love is listening
Love is truely hearing
Love is ...love is
Not what you make me feel
Pull me in close
Push me away
Love me only....
When its the right things i say
These ups and downs
These ins and outs
I love you so, never let you go
Can't take any more, just go away
I'm not gonna cry tonite

I thought of you again today
I've thought of you everyday
Since the Lord took you home to stay
Your voice i can still hear
So loud and so clear
I miss you so much Grandma
Oh how i wish you were here
Seems like only yesterday
The times we shared, the memories we made
I cherish every one of every day
Now you're in heaven my guardian angel above
Watching over all those that you love
No longer in pain with a body that's grown old
Walking with jesus, along streets of gold
I Love You Grandma!

So beautiful Terry! Always love reading your writing!

As i sit here thinking through
All that i thought i have meant to you
Rememberig the lies you hide behind
Rembering the places you run to
When it's not me you run to
You shut down and go away
When things don't go your way
You try and hide your lies
When they are so easy for me to find
So tell me why......
After these 2 long years
Do i hold on so tightly
To the one that has brought me so many tears
So tell me why..........
After all this time
Do i find it so hard to say good bye
I know it's time to just walk away
Before i waste another day
On someone who lies in all they do and say
The pain is real....cuts so deep
The hurt stinging like a slap in the face
My precious time you cannot replace
You have taken me completely
With your wicked smile and lying evil face

stuffed shells with sauce

I'm thinking about how deeply my boyfriend has hurt me by lying to me.....repeatedly!

Stope me...please someone stop me
Stop my hands from shakeing
Stop my soul from aching
Stop all this hurt inside of me
words cut so deep,said without thought
Of just what they would do to me
Just one word one sound
Standing here on shakey ground
Alone and lonely...waiting for
Anything and everything from you
Any thought emotion...love hate anything
Silence is all i hear...
My cries have fallen on your deaf ears
You act as if life is perfect
As if we are perfect,nothings wrong
I've cried out to you,bore my soul to you
Does my pain mean nothing to you
Somebody please stop me
Stop my heart from breaking
Stop my hands from shakeing
Stop me.........
From loving you

Shadows twisting turning the light against me
Creeping crawling...soon to cover me
Thoughts within my mind
Intertwining within time
Got me so confused turning me inside out
Now filled with fear-now filled with doubt
Moonlight so bright the night it shines
Brightening these sorrowfull thought inside
Yet do i dare-do i dare breakdown and cry
Cry for who ,cry for why
For loss of love,and pain so crushing
I just may die
For loss of self, of wich u caused
Long to restore only I
Throw away my decay
throw away you....and the games you play

Thank you

This summer evening brings with it
A breeze thats freezing me deep within
Summer is slowly fading
And with it my faith in you is changing
What once was no longer seems to be
Two years we've clung to love
You seemed to be sent from heaven above
But now i see you fading away
Soon to be changing fully with the leaves
Soon to be leaving me
You profess you love while you let me hang
You hold me tight then push me away
We talk of the future of life full of love
All the while i question you love
I feel like a yoyo pushed away
Then pulled back in
Won't be long.......
You'll no longer win

wish it was that easy....im the only one workin today so i have to go in. Hopefully i'll be busy and make alotta tips.

im glad im feeling better, but i still dont wanna go to work

This chickie is goin to bed!
May you all have sweet dreams!

thank you luis

thanks everyone for the well wishes......i slept all day, now im feeling better but not tired since i slept all day

Thanks eileena.....i hope this is it for bein sick this winter.

Was so sick yesterday and today..finally feeling better this evening
thank god it was only a 24 hour thing. had to call off work today and i never do that!

OMG....so mean but so funny!