To be honest... i was looking for some proof that he had a heart. Ive been going through depression, and dangerous suicidal behaviors. It was a comfort to know he had been through the same thing. It was what I was looking for, and it was what I found.

I know, im a ****ty girlfriend. I dont need you guys to confirm what I already know

Oh stop it already. No one ever said you were a bad person. However could we come to that conclusion based on a couple lines typed here? All we have explained is that it is odd for you to be digging through his things like that. You don’t seem to recognize that at all and THAT is what alarms a couple of us quite honestly. At least that was my understanding. Also, you seem to put a LOT of emphasis on how this guy felt about things 6 years ago. That was 6 years ago. People can change dramatically in that amount of time so wouldn’t it be a better idea for you to try to speak with him NOW and find out where his head is at? Instead of relying on what you think might have some kind of meaning based on what he was doing fresh out of high school? It’s absurd.

Awesome attitude to have!

I'm not sure what I'd be more freaked out about if I was him ... the fact that you snooped through my stuff, or the fact that you gave my name and all those intimate details to complete strangers on the internet?!

No shi$

If you really want to know something there is a secret way to get it...ask for crying out loud, I mean really?

I really agree with the majority of the posters here. The way to get to know your boyfriend's inner thoughts and feeling is not to dig through stuff in the closet. It's to talk to him. Really open up and share. If you can't do that, what's the point of the relationship? It's just two people sharing a house and a bed who really don't know each other's true feelings. That's the sad part for me.