My stripper friend Ben came to visit me yesterday. He still looks about twenty. How does he do it?

what about hi FRONT ?

Dear Journal ( because I can say that ) , Friday before long weekend , day after pay day ; first stop ? Liqour store!!!
that is all

Long weekend.....
To BBQ or Not to BBQ, That is the question??

haaa I was thinking ahead I went to the liquer store yesterday

*Blows the dust of the book*

*wipes with sleve*

Great! :D

Dear Diary!

I feel so funny these days. Like each year adds more history to my life. What will I be like next year?

I find each day a sruggle to the next. Only to find another to struggle with.

Would I be in better health without a family? I believe in many cases I would. But, I've always had their support. But, now I am unable to support myself, as they have always done everything for me. Now I'm sick and in bad health.

I live on the borders of all their worlds, unable to move on. When my little heart stops, I will know I was nothing more then their shadow.

I thought I was good, I thought I had something to give to the world.

You can't live in dreams, and the reality is that I'm a nobody.

I don't want to live any longer then I need too, I will leave my fate in the hands of destiny.

Dear Sister WaterBearer - MrBiscuit is proud of all your hard work ^_^

Dear BrotherBiscuit, chin up, there is always a reason that things happen, you will get better, you got to beleive in yourself, you have much to offer in this world, love, laughter, friendship, so there Now being serious, just give it all you got, you can do it, and let noone stand in your way, and if they do, just kick there azz out of your way.

Dear Sister WaterBearer, Thankyou so much. I just feel like my life force weakens more, each year.

I can barely even speak, let alone carry out simple activitys.

But, you're right :) Chin up, and keep smiling, because I am worth something.

And I will see if I can try to do something ^_^

Bless you dear Sister

I think my fear of speaking to new people makes me look inferior and unconfident. At first, i tried so hard to convince myself that i'd be ok when making conversation with newbies, but in the long run, i knew i'd still always end up wincing at the thought of it. This is why forming strong bonds with people is important to me. I don't want to end up with a bunch of people who pretend they're my bestest friend one day, and not the next. Lately, i've had it happen with three people since January 2011. I can't get my head round it. It leaves me feeling very confused. Maybe i should just stop being so nice to people. It's the only way to weed em out. Mind, i've definitely noticed how those three seemed a bit too "goody two shoes". I just thought that they were being nice back. Well never again. And i hope they get constipation for life. lol. Really really painful embarrassing constipation. Ha ha. Sorry i'm awful aren't i?

Dear diary,

Thanks to my wonderful friends, I'm feeling much better today ^_^

I am surposed to be going out with my mum tommorow, but I don't think she really plans on taking me...whatever I guess.

Also I think I've lost a lot of concentration recently. I can't focus on a single thing. not even my dinner (which is one of my favourite things).

I feel both stranded, and free.

I brought a Christmas selection box today. Yep, all the Christmas stuff is out in the super market now, very cheerful to see :)

It was very tasty! :D

The kiddies were back in school today, another peace of mind.

Next week seems quiet magical so I'll wait and see ^_^

I feel much better today. I promise to be more playful ;)

Dear Diary I am feeling kind of blue today, I don't want to feel this way. I wish I could see myself as others see me but I don't. I feel like there is a large hill in front of me and it justs keeps getting steeper and steeper and I just can't seem to get to the top.

Dear diary,

I am happy today, I had a great day out. I have decided that my future is not dependent on Mingle. Thefore I will depart tomorow. Nobody stays in one place forever. Everyone is so friendly here, and I know I have many friends.

Of course my friends have helped me so much, and I really appriciate that. I am a different person to the one that joined here, and I know that's going to help me out a lot in life, so a big thankyou to all my friends, love you all, and I will greatly miss you all ^_^

Dear Diary,
I've been thinking









HI TTO!!

Not even you know my deepest secrets, diary. Woohoo!! :) That's all for now folks!!

Dear Diary, "Shakin while makin bacon naked in Macon".....makes me really want to visit the south!

Dear diary,

I am begining to feel that cool winter air. It makes me feel calm, it reminds me that I'm alive. And those short days of sunlight, remind me to get up and see it, feel it's warmth, if only for a while. I can see my breath, and feeling so cold that I never remove my coat all day long.

Those small joys become big ones, familys become closer.

I struggle to move, I dare not move for the fear of freezing.

Remembering to eat at least once a day. Having frosty train journeys in the fields of snow.

Enough darkness in the season to give anyone insanity.

Bring it on winter, bring it on :)

helloe my friend

Avril Lavigne is just a poser me thinks