happy birthday!!

good one

thank you

How do I move on,
When I know you are the one?

I try and try but,
My heart and soul cry.

I know your words are wise,
But I feel it's me you despise.

The pain in my heart won't quit,
Even though my mind says “ GET OVER IT”

how can you leave me all alone,
when you know my heart is your home?

I never asked you to fix anything,
all I wanted was you to bring,
your loving arms and wrap them around me,
so together we could just be.

I know right now life is stressful,
but does that mean we as a couple can not be successful?

I have been brought up to stand up for what I believe,
And what I believe is with me you should cleave.

You know in your hear you will never find
another love that will compare to mine.

Yet you continue to avoid you inner voice,
what makes you continue with this choice?

I so wanted to call you many times,
just to hear your voice say my name.
But every time I pick up the phone,
It's always the same.

I know what I want and it is you.
No one else will ever do.
I wonder if you still feel this way too?

My life is slowing down,
I am acting again like a clown.

I have a lot of time now a days to spare.
Do you even still care?

I am wanting to let you know,
That I'm trying to let you go.
But my heart and soul say “NO”

I have so many things I want to say,
But does it matter anyway?

I wonder if you actually have moved on,
or if you heart still feels that I'm the one.
Baby, Please don't leave me standing here alone.

I see all that you did for me,
If only you would allow us to be.
I just want you to talk to me.

You say you had a hard time leaving,
then why aren't you coming back and cleaving?

You said eventually we will both survive.
Is that some kind of avoidance jive?

You said the pain would fade.
But what about the love in your hear for me you made?

I miss your voice, your smile, your dimples, your touch.
Am I really asking too much?

Please come take away the pain.
And I swear I'll never take you for granted again.

But for now I must go.
I hope I really let you know,
That I still love you so.

When does the parade start??

I know the SILENCE.. IT SUCKS...

Sounds like my guy.. the asking to marry me early, saying he loved me early..sorry to hear.. He left my house on a Sunday, too...

Glad to see you are doing well..

*&%! commercials!!

LOL no...ummmm 3.5 in kitty years? (30)

styx... come sail away

Nice to see you...

Hi Romeo...

I won't back down.. Tom Petty & the heartbreakers.

ummm hard to see in the pic... 40?

lol no. ummm 2 in kitty years?

ummmm no... not for a couple years.. but ty for the compliment.. I think.

soo totally single..

48?

Posting in the forums definately gets you seen more and gets more responses. Don't give up, someone will find you. You are beautiful, I'm sure it's just because you aren't in the population of the forums.

LOOK, It's superman!!

Four days after having to admit my 10yr old to the psych unit for suicidal thoughts, He left.. saying "He couldn't handle the stress of my life"

Two days later, he ended a phone call with "I love you." An email three days later that said, "I know it's hard right now, but WE will both survive."

WHAT THE H*ll does that MEAN???

Nothing ever since..

How did I get past it?

Prayer. I get better every day. Oh,... and

thank you

What have I done?

How did it go so wrong?

My heart aches by day and breaks every night.

How could I have pushed you away?

What could I have done differently?

I expected too much.

Everything happened so fast.

I was caught up in my own unsecurities and confusion.

But you said we were working on things.

You said you love me.

Does that not count for something?

How hard would it be to try?

Putting all the other pressures aside?

If your love was true, this you would do..

I sit here confused, tearing myself apart, where can I hide?

No where. Nowhere can I hide from the one inside that pursecutes me.

For that one is me.

I guess this is how it is going to be.

I can't chase you forever,

I have begged for forgiveness and mercy to a deaf ear.

Just know, in my heart I hold you dear.

I miss you. I love you. I wish we could compromise and work this out.

Does your heart break too? If so, then why won't you move?

Come close so I can hear,

Come wipe away my tears.

Reality of today is temporary,

The stress that is now will pass.

When it does, will my face, memories of me, come to you at last?

I'll take all the blame,

most is mine anyway.

If it's ego, how will that help when you are alone and miss me?

The hole you've dug your heels in, Can you, will you break free?

Sometimes reason is enough,

sometimes emotions are what we need to see,

Will you please look to your heart and tell me where each stand?

Are you ignoring my plea?

I want you in my life.

Less than a month ago I was told you wanted me to be your wife.

Are all those feelings gone now?

Was the love that shallow?

If so why did you cry? I could see the pain in your eyes.

I didn't want you to leave,

Only to make the right decision for you.

I feared you would leave me,

I told you this two or three times,

Now it has happened and I wonder if I will ever trust again.

It wasn't the original plan.

You were the first man I felt I could truly trust in years
Now you are gone and I'm in tears.

I don't know what else to say.

Except I think you are amazing in so many ways.

I'm sorry I didn't communicate it well enough.

I focused only on the rough stuff.

Now the question is do you love me enough to take another chance?

To start slow and build again?

I can say yes.

I wish you would too.

It was less than 24 hours ago you said you loved me,too.

Will your actions show it?

Or will you just leave me here feeling blue?

Please, baby, please.... can't you feel my heart breaking?

I try not to contact you,

not to call,

to let you contact me first.

This is my only release.

It's just a tease.. no response...only anticipation of something,

I hold on to hope, because that's all I have.

I love you. I miss you...I miss your kisses, your soft tongue on mine,

I miss holding you, cuddling with you...

Don't you miss me?

Was it all a farce?

Was I just a place to stay?

Was I going to be history one day anyway?
How will I ever know?

Only if I hear from you.

I'm trying to set you free,

because I know you don't want me.

I'm just having a hard time

With so many questions that are unanswered on my mind.

You did so much for me and I didn't see,

How foolish I was.

Won't you hear my heart felt plea?

Please, baby, please come back to me.