I'm thinking heart break sucks. All that tine and effort for alot of pain . .im done for awhile.

The shaddered pieces of my heart pierce my soul.
Tears flowing beyond control
I dared to dream, I dared to care
I ignored the signs that things were going Nowhere.
I want numb. . . .i dont want to feel
While im waiting for this broken heart to heal.
Will I dare to love again?
Only God knows

Hey everyone Just wanted to send a big thank you to all of you who check in on my thread. You support has meant so much to me.I've been yo-yoing between 235-225 for the last couple of months. I've been pretty busy with school and my activity level had decreased, but i'm trying to make adjustments to improve that. I just finished all the course work in my medical billing and coding classes WITH A 97% !!! . I'm gonna spend the next couple of weeks studying for the National Coding Certificate. Hopefully I can take the National Test in November. Waiting to see if I can Get help paying for the Test from my Voc Rehab Service specialists. I sure hope so because its a $325 test. Keep your fingers crossed for me . I'll Keep you all updated.(((((( HUGS TO ALL))))) Penny

Hey everyone . . long time no see. Hope all are doing well. Here is my situation. I've been dating a guy for over a year. He lives about a hour from me, and being that I have school; and no vehicle, I only spend about two weekends a month with him. We never really go do anything just sit around his place, watch tv. Most of this is due to his health issues .. He has COPD and it make it hard for him to walk or be active for long. I care about him and he is a good person. But he has yet to say he wants an exclusive relationship, although he had mentioned moving in together when I'm done with school, but he also knows I don't want to live in the small town where he is, and he doesn't want to move to the larger Tucson area. I'm not seeing anyone else, And that I know of he isn't either. But I'd like to know where I stand, or if this is as far as it's going.Or if I should just assume he expects an exclusive relationship. I know I should just talk to him . . but part of me is kinda afraid that He's gonna say he doesn't care if I see other people. UGGHH!!! Relationships are so complicated!!!! Any Suggestions?

Thank you Vicky . . . Love you Girl.

I've got some great pic of him on my facebook. . . That's one SEXY Cowboy

I proudly post my weight regularly in my weight loss support forum. I'm 220 at the moment my ultimate goal is 180ish. I started at 404 three years ago. If I can do it anyone can.

Happy 4th of July Everyone !!!! I wanted to share so meting I've learned on my journey. . . Being true to yourself, and learning that you deserve to be happy. In the beginning I had no self esteem and it was hard for me to see value in myself.. But as I lost weight, I started rewarding myself with non=food rewards. ... small knick knack, a new nail polish, simple pleasures. I've come along way, and when I saw that Kenny Chesney was coming to town, I decided that deserved a big reward for all my positive changes. So I bought myself a VIP ticket, with money I had been saving for something special. Had an awesome time at the Kenny Chesney Concert. He was AWESOME. But the best part was the feeling if pride I had from being comfortable in a regular seat with room to spare and room for people to get around me . From a size 28/30(4X or 5X) to a size 16 . .THATS SOMETHING TO CELEBRATE !!!

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Hi everyone. Just wanted to say hi. All is going well. At 220 . .a huge differance from the 404 I started at. :). Been very busy with school. Hope everyone is doing good. I'll try to pop in more often. Love u all.

It’s time for you to go
Although it hurts me so
It’s time for you to fly
Or at least give it a try.
I’ve done all I can
My little boy is now a man
Tears of sorrow, tears of pride
Joy and pain I cannot hide
It’s time for you to go
Know I’ll always
LOVE YOU SO.

:) :) :) Howdy Everyone.:) I'm so sorry I haven't been on much. Life's got me pretty busy. The classes im taking have the last 6 weeks reserved for an externship. But I managed to get offered one while im still taking my classes. My instructors okayed it. I start friday. :). For the next 6-8 weeks I'll be doing both. School m-w and externship Thursday. And Fri. But thay means I'll be able to get my certificate the end of September. Instead of middle November. :). As far as my weight goes im holding syeady at 225. And im so much healthier and happier than I was. Thanks you all for your support. Hope every one is doing well. _((((HUGS))))) Penny

I'm. Thinking. That its gonna be a long boring weekend .

Baboons

The Grand ball room in beautiful....

Cabbage

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Fancy French Fries. Lol

Choices are a powerful thing
They can make you cry.
They can make you sing
Who? What? When?Where?Why?
These are the choices we live our lives by.
Choose to move forward
Choose to stand still
Choose to go back up that hill.
We have the power to choose everyday
Choose wisely my friend
Listen to your heart
Listen to your mind
Choose carefully
Take your time
and always remember
Be true to yourself
Make the choice
Don't let the choice
Make you.

Happy New year everyone.
I'm holding steady at 230, but s plateau is normal and I managed to make it through the hollidays with out gaining even though Imade a crazy amount of cookies and candies for my friends and neighbors. This year as well as continuing to make healthier choices I'm going back to school. I start Medical Billing and coding classes on monday :) Hope you all are doing well, I wish you alk a New year filled with Love,Hope,Peace. <3 Penny

Hi everyone :) Many of you know I have 3 kids. They are all now adults. My 2 younger ones my son 21 and My daughter 22 ( who is 9 months pregnant) and her boyfriend who's 25 live with me. None of them have regular jobs, They do help some by doing odd jobs and donating plasma. But I pay all the bills. I have the opportunity to move to a much nicer place but its in another state. Which means leaving them to fend for themselves. I'm struggling with what to do especially since their is a baby on the way. Advice anyone?

Good morning everyone:) I'm sorry I'm not on Mingle much, I've had a lot going on. But I sure miss you all,and hope everyone is doing well. I Wanted to share some of the ways my life has changed since loosing weight and becoming healthier.

At 404 I could barely walk,any thing more than 100 feet would leave me in pain and out of breath. On Monday I walked 3 miles without stopping to rest.

I no longer have to use a scooter buggy when I go grocery shopping.

I can now look down and see my feet. I can tie my shoes.

I can shop for clothes in the regular size dept. Not the plus size.

I can sit in a booth at a restaurant,a movie theater seat,a plastic outdoor chair and not be comfortable,and not fear it will break.

I can now leave food on my plate and walk away. I now automatically choose high low carb snacks over chips or sweets

Most importantly . .I love myself . I'm happy with who I am and that makes the biggest difference.