I found out yesterday my partner has been talking to another guy near Atlanta. I took it wayy too wrong and started having panick attacks after 3 years without one. I was with him for nearly two years and he told me yesterday he's been depressed for almost a year and didn't know how to tell me.
There is no easy way to say it.
Number one- you should have came to me first about it..
Number two- you should have straight out said you weren't happy because ****ing with emotions and love is NOT something you can just get over.

I thought we were happy 95% of the time, but we've been living together the entire relationship and then I got hit with this guy calling me telling me that him and my boyfriend have been talking for a few days.

I haven't slept.. I haven't eaten.. I haven't even picked up my drum sticks..

I just need advice.
I don't have anyone to turn to..
I don't know any other gay guys here and for the most part, they all just want to have a good time and i'm looking for a serious relationship.
I thought I was in one, but I guess I was blind.

My mother makes me feel like it's my fault, my sister told me that she wishes there were guys like me that would treat her the way i treated my ex..
God, just typing "ex" makes me cry..
I just need some help, you guys.