Preoccupied with how I've been classified,
Praying for God to once again save my life,
I became a minister when God showed me the signs,
Blessed with visions that I've prophesied,
A messenger from The Almighty Most High
I feel like now is my time
For my soul to be sanctified.....
I pray to God because he is always by my side,
Times I was lost, broken, and blind,
He always left something for me to find,
Every time I've fallen he gave me ladder to climb,
Every step up was a struggle but that struggle is mine,
Every time I broke down to my knees and cried,
He reminded me to look up at the sky,
The guilt was heavy, but that guilt is mine,
Every time I hurt myself he made me more dissatisfied,
The hunger grew in my eyes but that hunger is mine,
when i hated my reality, he removed the blindfold from my eyes
I created torture in my mind but that torture is mine,
When I gave up he didn't let me die,
My suffering became my life, but the suffering is mine.
I am proud to carry everything that is mine,
Today I am strong and I am wise,
I've learned not to forget but leave the past behind,
I have found happiness when I stop and simplify,
I am not known to cause harm or tell a lie,
I am grateful for what I have and I am satisfied,
I use my knowledge in the best interest of everyone's life,
I am not jealous and I don't carry ill thoughts in my mind,
The words I speak are true, I don't feel different inside,
I love every blessing and I appreciate being alive!
God is my savior, he is my guide
I know I am right,
I refuse to lose sight,
No matter how hard they hit, I will continue to fight,
God will shed his light
For the truth is my alibi
This is my life
And this is what I tesify........

- Val Valles 09/2018

When life became to hard to live,
I thought death was the answer,
But I didnt die..... So now what?
I walk around with a smile,
People tell me how beautiful is is,
But deep down.. Im dead inside,
The more I lose, the wiser I become,
The more I hurt, the stronger I get,
The less I learn, the more I see what shouldn't be revealed.
Little by little im finding the answers.
Life or death?
I have hope and I have faith,
Having hope and faith in anything should be positive,
Thoughts Ive had throughout my life,
Are actually starting to happen now,
10, 20, 30 or however many years it takes,
They will always become my reality,
No telling how many lifetimes it will take,
The only way out is through my own thoughts.
Hope to fix everything, hope everyone is happy without me....
Hope can make death look good.
Having faith makes life not seem so bad,
I can have faith in anything,
Person, place, thing... It doesnt matter,
My faith is something that makes me smile.
A good thought, experience,
the moments that make me feel alive,
I AM smiling.
I don't have to stop trying to live or die,
When I have reasons to be happy. ❤

Val, 7/2020 XIXI