Something inside me cries
All the while i am growing old
I feel its claws as the pain unfolds
My mind fades back into the Abyss so dark and so cold
Ive died inside my love shriveled and rotted no longer appearing gold
Im black as the bottomless sea now to ****ing old
The cold no longer bothers me yet always remains
Im corforted by this constant wave of you dont have a ****ing clue about my pain or my agony or regrets
I dream about hell wake up and live it
These dreams and haunting visions so sweet and flow to the melody of my beating heart which no longer beats but prays for days where pain is no longer present
Blood no longer pumps to a man who isnt free
But the devils pulse is strong in a tormented spirit who cant breathe
I dont know you and you dont have a clue in what i believe
Ive been through a stormy sea
With no paddle and no dreams
Suffocated to death came back to life and guess what im still me
I dont know if i have a soul
A spirit a heart all i see is a black hole which still bleeds
When i awake i dont wake up
Instead i feel crushed by weight and have no way to scream for help
God is a blessing a curse a fake empty beautiful shell
An illusion my life is on a path going towards anything becoming well
Something inside me rises
A pressure and flame burns higher
With out a polite gesture and no apologizes
Im becoming the demon my mind hides behind as i fall victom to it its power which only symbolizes
My own demise pain transcends me into tongues i cannot even i dentify

My love came to me in a dream
Masquerading in a tormenting scene
Disguised as my heaven disguised as my queen
Your not real and still i feel your terrible squeeze
Your the breath in my life your the reason i breathe
I hate that i love you and your everything i need
Your my downfall and yet everything i seek
You came prancing to me a sweet vixen with eerisome wings
A molevalent beast my host my blood my fiend

I never thought i would end up broken
Lost to many friends along this road ive been going
Just lost my girl and she was addicted to smoking
Addicted to needles and slowly im watching her eyes closing
Hit after hit shes hitting my heart and i do not know how i am coping
Ive fallen down a hole to many holes in my soul im finally exploding
All the love i have in left to give is slowly fading and decomposing
The devil rose up i see my world of sorrow is finally unfolding
I lost to many people in my life death smiles i smile back this time i am not joking
I feel like my world is on fire but i keep on walking my memories turn to ash they dont go out they just keep on glowing
I dont feel anymore and i feel like my demise is promising and beautifully approaching

Something i am working on, its not finished but ill share it anyways.
Hope you like it.



Im being lowered down upon a town of death
bound by chains created by my own regret

Starring up at myself as he smiles down
Rotating the crank of heinous intent

I feel the weight of agony ripping apart my chest
incinerating my hopes and dreams and all thats left

I can hear the cries of innocent lives burning into ash
And a desolation of fear transcending into wrath

I am slowly seperating away from myself
Coalescing into the solace of a shadow

Scowling through me behind his shelter of night

I see the world below me through a crimson flame
Moving through my body in an uncontrollable rage

Igniting the memories ive endured with passionate shame
Deteriorating my human self in a tormented blaze

Im falling between what is real and only in my dream
through memories of being alive or so it may seem

Will you stay with me forever in this land of hell

To share the pain trickling down into this insidious well

The water burns through skin and leaves behind the remains of a decomposed smell

Forever lingering on the edge of sanity is where my thoughts dwell

I am a hardened man and yet I’ve been casted into the molds of a fragile shell

And here lies the cries of my heart ripped apart from the light and into darkness from which I fell

My heart is as big as the earth
But its filled with darkness and dirt
The day I was born I was cursed
To wander this land always hurt!
Messing around with this poem for now later I'll add more to it.


My heart is asking what is love?
Wondering what is it made of
Is there anything except blood
And I'm drowning in my own flood

My heart beats in a quiet sound
Crying out never to be found
Screaming out as blood fills the ground
I embrace death in which were bound

My heart is yelling what is love??
What is this feeling you've described
Can you not feel it in my vibe...
Can you not see I'm dead inside..

Is my heart dead or still alive?
Behind these remorseless blue eyes
I've lost this love in which I thrive..
I need more then just to survive....

At the end of his song he repeats those words 3 times. "This is my legacy" You made me believe it was part of the song. Not to mention all you said was the letter M. Not even a word,just a letter. A very bleak description in my opinion but what do I know? I Do know that you failed to use quotations. Not 1 single quotation was used but I'm not pointing fingers. :-)

It's always a good habbit to point out the quotes when you write, instead of saying nothing, people might think you wrote this. When in fact these are the lyrics to an eminem song. I love the song though.

Thanks for the replies :)

" Sometimes our light goes out but is blown into flame by another human being. Each of us owes deepest thanks to those who have rekindled this light."

Im starring down the memories of my past
And slowly im filled with remorse hitting me back

Im wondering how different things could have been
If i could go back and do them all again

I could take back all of the blood i have spilled
And repair all the broken hearts i have killed

Unfortunately i have to live with all of this pain
And walk in my sorrow until i have no one to blame

There is not a single day that ever goes by without any thought of regret
The pain of my sadness lingers into wounds so deep the blood creeps even into my dreams i wish i could forget

Ive cried my tears dry day after day
Days turned into years accompanied with dismay

They say out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls
But my spirit that lives appears broken and is left with too many holes

Im not trying to be in this state of mind
A state of being tired, bored, and sleep deprived
And I'm not usually like this
But the ghost of me just arrived
Unaware if I am alive
Out of this human shape and size
Into death's mannequin I rise
Sweet melodic whispers of guise
Tempting me to believe it's lies

I feel unreal is this a dream
Nothing at all is what it seems

Im on autopilot heading towards an ethereal scene

Of white clouds under the moon and they all seem so serene

Water cascades in the wind and reflects in a sea green

Im flying dazed in the midst of a resplendent smoke screen

In the distance within my dream
Stands a tall marvelous castle
Of a king and beautiful queen
My heart can barely take the sight
In the cold of a winters night
And it's not ordinarily
Being alone gives me the fright
To be without my hearts desire
So Im accompanied with pain
Truly offers me no delight
So I seek my own way forward
From out of this damned hellish plight

As I walk into these dark woods,
I notice that there is no light,
But these eyes arent afraid of fright,
Not afraid not even a slight,
These woods made of menacing trees,
Made of baleful threatening leaves,
Displays warning to all who sees,
Few pass through this is true indeed,
Fewer escape with scars to bleed,
My journey through these woods called life,
A path who knows which shows less strife,
At the end we all share alike,
Surviving grants no gift to me,
One who lives is the rarest thing,
To learn from my friend misery,
On that day ill truly be free,

Your a hell of a writer :)

For you ...

I would walk into darkness
Fall head first into the abyss

For you..

I would die a thousand deaths
Cast into the devils nest

For you..

My love I'd do anything
Devils cry when angels sing

For you..

I cherish above all life
Life itself does not suffice

For you..

I will battle forever
My blood and pain endeavor

For you..

No obstacle stands between
All the beauty I have seen

For you..

I wait beyond heavens gate
The day our love seals my fate

For you..

Are the world beneath my feet
The reason my heart skips beet

And I .... Will always love you

My thoughts - were all too eager to criticize our own work. I feel my last poem was below my own potential
I think this ones better :)


What if..
Your dreams and thoughts became your reality
What kind of world would your mind put you in
If you haven't mastered your emotions would they decide the outcome of your manifestations
If you were angered and saddened by the loss of people close to you what situations would your mind put you into
If you were beaten beyond reason, bludgeoned and bloody, would the wrath of your rage envelop and burn everything around you
Consumed in fury what you see no longer making sense
Your own loss of control would tear and shred apart the world you've created
What if...
your emotions were no longer balanced, would you fall victim to it's devastation, forcing out what you feel
Feeling the weight of the world crashing down on you
If you were saddened and depressed, would you forever fall in a black hole never able to land
Drowning in pain and misery from within your own hell
Feeling agony and torment you cast yourself in a cocoon of nightmares you'd never wish upon any man
If you were just a little child...
All alone and scared in the world you knew would your mind chase you, forever hunted and haunted by your own fears
Running away for eternity, too young and naive to stop and fight because you lack the experiences and wisdom life teaches
And what if...
Your mind created a beautiful and ethereal world you could give a name to such as heaven
A heaven so exotic and phenomenal you couldn't hold back tears at such a sight, beholding to what your eyes see, no mortal words can describe such a wonder, you might say it was like eternal beauty gazing at you, and if I ever had the chance too see what you might have seen my heart couldn't bear-
beat another minute, for such a thrill the mere thought sends me a chill

I sit in silence
Pondering kindness
Questioning violence
Dreaming who's leading
God I need guidance
Lacking alliance
Who's the real tyrant
Mystery lion
Trickery pirate
Contradictory
Mysteries baby
Slippery lady
Amazing crazy
Sounds kinda shady
My mind is fading
Time equals aging
Who is debating
I am escaping
Who is translating
IM navigating
Worlds for my taking
No IM not waiting
Decision making
IM concentrating
IM contemplating
I am Ice skating
Watch me IM playing
IM old school training
Master persuading
Intoxicating
Insider trading
Stop all the hating
Your masquerading
It's aggrevating
It's Captivating
Annihilating
Anticipating
No longer silent
No longer violent
Now I am silenced...

My birthday was feb on the 25th. And i turned 25, Nothing about that day was out of the ordinary. Just another Monday like any other day. Just like today in my life. It goes by with as much joy as looking at minutes circle around the clock. Once in my life my days were different. And my heart and mind were in a place that now i dont even recognize. Everthing ive gone through has damaged me. Maybe i can be repaired and whatever. I kind of doubt that, I walk through each day of my life as if my insides were on fire. I focus so hard on anything that doesnt remind me of yesterday so much that its unsettling. At times its unbearable but i push through it as if i was in my last fight to the death. I hold on to this monstrous part of me im disgusted with. Its grown on and within me to the very core. I know I've lost a lot. Everything that matters. More then having a normal life. More then having had parents around . I've lost part of me that made me human. Ive lost more then love. At times you would think by looking at a picture of me i might appear normal and handsome. At times i feel nothing and worse. I feel like people who look at me see all this ice within my heart. Peering through my eyes into a perilous pool without color. I havent given up on life or what i have left. Im just scarred beyond the point of covering them all up. Im scared of becoming the man i picture in my mind. Im trying to live free. I feel like a slave, and only something as great as faith can free me. As fierce as i appear on the outside, is really a cover for how broken and fragile i am. -- This piece of material doesnt even make complete sense to me when i read it but i know all my words are honest.

Some people focus on
Money, clothes, like Louis vuitton
Some people focus on
Money, paintjobs and fake hair wanting light blonde
Some people focus on
Appearance, the next clearance, armani suits, and prada boots
Some people focus on
Appearing cocky like Apollo creed in the movie Rocky
Some people focus on
Acting cool, trying to be someone else when you know there really a fool
Some people focus on
Drug deals, and marijuana fields and playing tony montana as if crossing them will get you killed
Some people focus on
The less interesting and beautiful things
Life has to offer when you open your eye's to those dreams
Some people focus on
The less interesting and beautiful things
Life has to offer more then being the next politic king
Some people focus on
Going to school, and they learn scriptures in books
So much knowledge without truly applying those tools
Some people focus on
Mundane projects and tedious tasks thinking about them is giving me a complex
Some people
Walk, by Gods beautiful blue sky without realizing any minute we could die
And if they left do you think they pondered upon, all the insignificant things that are now all gone

I try to captivate emotions more often, and i was tired so i was probably being to melodramatic. lol :-D

Ty all :-D