welcome

very beautiful

days off are always a good thing

Smiles faded
Dreams in shambles
On and on that poetic heart rambles
Weary eyes are sick of sorrow
Maybe, just maybe the sun will shine tomorrow
So many have turned their backs
In search of the sun
She cannot laugh as much
There isn't enough strength in those arms
To hold them up
Apologies just keep growing
But deaf ears do not want to hear
Fine! Go ahead, walk away
Feet of lead march on everyday
The roads grow rougher
Eventually it will smooth over
Twinkling eyes cloud with tears
Strong shoulders are ready to crumble
An empty hole replaces a heart
For it sprouted wings and was presented with a halo
Tears have been the most recent visitor
If only someone would understand
She wouldn't be sitting here alone
If only God could've let him be...
To hear the words “It was just a dream”
She would give her last breath.
Love has died
It's just a thing of the past
If not there would be no war
She screams his name in the empty darkness
He cannot reply,
Over and over she falls
But his arms cannot reach
Why?
He retired his gun
Put away dirty combat boots
And traded a worn out uniform
For a pair of wings
All to keep us free
She calls his name
The only answer is the wind
Love has died...

lol that works then

fun fun

Another rough day on this end trying to push passed it though...what's everyone else up to?

welcome

One more day with chris
The ability to walk
And for tom cruise to be like 20 again and fall in love with me

lol nooo tot just tater

Most of what i write is sad because poetry is the only way i can effectively release emotion and i dont handle death well so yea

On bended knee an angel weeps,
Stripped of her wings,
Of all the promises he made
Her heart is dying
piece by piece it falls apart
One tear after another,
Her halo is bent and no longer shines
On bended knee an angel weeps,
Dreaming of the man he was
She no longer has the strength to look to the sky
Longing to once again feel complete
Encircled in strong arms no longer
The world is much colder
Without the light of his love...
Much darker
On bended knee an angel weeps,
Only as the moon kisses the sky
Does the pain let up
All the could-have-been's
Caress a bleeding heart as she sleeps

thanks d4tc

it blows

Empty dreams
Poor shattered heart
It aches for him,
Letters in a drawer
Memories mingle with the summer air
Anger burns once in awhile
My hero
The keeper of this heart
Gunshots invade my dreams
A twenty-one gun salute...
I want to turn back time
To take our poem from that grave marker
And put it in his hands
God why?
Why was it his time?
I just don't understand
This pillow is soaked,
The kleenx is gone
I cling to all but faded memories
Oh my soldier
How I wish you were coming home to me
I need your love,
That promise of forever
Tonight I'm in pain,
Falling once again
How I wish you were here to catch me

thats cool

hey pats hows ur night goin

I know it will suz tonight just blows i havent had a night like this in awhile

thanks you guys

Most of the time I try not to let things get to me too much but sometimes it doesn't work so well I've also learned to accept the things that cannot be reversed namely death and even though i accept it some nights i find myself wishing my boyfriend were still here he saw me in a light no one ever did and maybe one no one ever will never once did i wonder if i was truely accepted disability, anxiety and all because it was obvious but ever since he's been gone the ignorance of the world has become more obvious. I brush it off and keep going because my friends are amazing but some nights like tonight it feels like one step forward and about 25 back he was such an amazing person and its a shame he lost his life at just 27 because the world can't get along. Sometimes i dont think i realized what i had until suddenly it was all gone before now i forgot what it was like to be lonely to be avoided because i'm a little different it pretty much really blows but i do really appreciate the friends i've made here because everyday gets a little easier those who know and love me do their best to make me laugh and to pick me up when i fall the hardest because of that i've learned to count the blessings in life but still tonight the harder i try not to miss him the more i do...yall are probably sick of me whining and if thats the case im sorry sometimes it just feels better to get it out and to know that yea okay people do care so to those of you who have been there through this first year without him i cannot even begin to tell you how much it means