So I

The wind’s draft was cold
so I
closed the door
and darkened
your words
because they hurt so much
and I needed to hide
from the world
as I tried to understand

I wanted to be
more than just a moment
more than just a passing memory
while you waited
for a different tomorrow
at the expense of my hopes
so I
sheltered my heart within these four walls of loneliness

And this place
this quiet abode
doesn’t feel like home anymore
though it’s still similar to yesterday
and the laughter before then
so I
dreamed of then as I tried to understand
now

There Is Nothing . . .

Though tomorrow
was this unknown moment
set so far off in the distance
that only time understood when it would really be
something about now
made it seem real
as if it were happening to me
as if it were happening within me

It felt
as if it were this perfect moment
where the stars were aligned across the night sky
and slowly
one by one
they began to decorate the darkness
with a light as gentle as a butterfly’s kiss
until the world
was still
and waiting
with bated breath for the sun to rise

In my dreams
I could feel tomorrow’s warmth
reaching out for me
like golden rays of brilliance
stretching
and discovering
secrets
kept silent by the night
my heartbeat echoes with anticipation
because I know
that though tomorrow
was this unknown moment
set so far off in the distance
that only time understood when it would come to be
there is nothing more beautiful than waking up
next to you

really like this!!

Ok let me say this tommy, I read your work and for you to say this means a lot so thank you. pkh you know I appreciate your kind words
and laphosh, winlei, and blondey ... thanks so much

One Slow Night Not to Remember

If I
asked you
to dull my pain
with sweet music
I knew
could not
and would not
last longer than tomorrow

If I
asked you
to play a song
that had no words
or rhythm
yet somehow
eased my sorrow

Would you
for one slow night
be the quiet
that keeps me awake
so that my dreams
won’t remember being the heart
with cupid’s broken arrow

A Thousand Cuts

Opinions
and prejudice
cross examine
then damn me
they cannot hear my voiceless screams
they have no idea
who I am
or who I could be
so I
grasp the sword
with my anger’s pain
then cry until the thousand cuts
bleed to ease the pain
to them
I am still
letters
on an empty page
the no one
who’s fighting an epic battle
with hollow rage
they see my light
as darkness
for the blind eye
believes
only the truth
born from a truthful lie
and that lie
that truth
their words
define me
but not my soul
for the impending storm’s reign
protects me

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One Last Dream

Drifting
to sorrow’s song
the distance is as far
as the night is long

The whisper
the last word
I didn’t want to hear
what I heard

So
as you turned
my heart cried
as it yearned

For one last moment
one last time
one last dream
that you were mine

Thank you pkh . . . you know you just gotta live and enjoy

Amongst the Stars

My soul
is light as my dreams
soaring
in and out of the clouds
reaching
for an unknown destiny
it’s there
in the midst
of the confusion
and clutter of my thoughts
it’s there
waiting for me
to find it
embrace it
and cherish it

My soul
is as bright as the sun’s beams
dashing
in and out of the clouds
leaving
shadows
behind each step that moves towards
the unknown destiny
it’s there
in the midst of the day’s journey
it’s there
waiting for me
to live it
and love it
because it’s all I will have
as the night rises
and the heaven’s chorus welcomes me home

With Me

No
we’re not really there
but I’m dreaming
about it
the afternoon sun
violently relaxing the world
as roaring waves
discover the shore

Close your eyes . . . can you feel it?
Can you feel
how time
slowly moves in our favor
or how
sultry the heat
exaggerates our mood
until we can’t contain
how beautiful life makes us feel

No
we’re not there
on the beach
with a bit of music
and the absence of stress
where life seems
to dance
as wave after wave
and seagull after seagull
define simplicity
but knowing
I have you here
with me
in the middle of winter
with its cold
snow
and clouds
sitting in front of the fireplace
my dreams tell me
we're almost there

Wow . . . love it

Rotten Apple


Had a candy apple
salted caramel
but still
sweet
savored each bite
as if it were
life’s last treat

That same
candy apple
though
had quite a surprise
sweet
in the beginning
soon became sour
in disguise

I really do love your work

The Distance

I arrived
feeling wanted
and left
feeling used
racing heart’s
excitement
led me to a place
where my soul
was confused

Love
for a moment
pain
for memory
the distance
between the two
is defining me

It should feel
so beautiful
that you’re here
so close to me
yet
it hurts so much
that you’re here
so far from me

You asked me to stay
knowing
I wanted to believe
I said yes
knowing your heart
would probably leave
I will not ask you why
nor will I
walk away
refusing not to cry
because I want you
to know
I need you
to see
the forever
your love
has done to me

Wow . . . I like this

Fleeting Moment of Forever

Though
it was just a fleeting moment
I could see her
not the her a mere few seconds could discern
but the her
a thousand tears could feel

I want to say
she was lonely
standing by the window as if she were waiting
for the rain to find its ending
but that wasn’t it
it was deeper
more like she was tired of having to hurdle
a thousand standing puddles
each filled with
drowning city lights
and each
waiting to drown her light

Her reluctance
to walk out into the pain
to face the depths of what a day had brought
painted her a color of sorrow
and that’s the her I saw
and will see for forever

Doin’

I want
to use words like
damn
fuc%
but you got me moanin’
and ain’t a word
I can think of
that can describe
what you’re doin’ to me
so I’m
going
just keep
on
doin’
what
I’m . . .
while
you keep on
doin’
what you
you’re . . .

First of before I respond to this alnewman, you're an idiot. You're the reason why legitimate conversations can't be held anymore. Not the government. Seriously. Stop blaming and start doing.
Now where was I? Ok you were saying gays want to legitimize their relationship or choice or status or whatever still boils down to simply wanting someone to know you're having sex. The first step in legitimizing your lifestyle is simply to live. Pay no attention to those who pay attention to you. But in our society we tend to hold onto the opinions of others for whatever reason. I still think in the end we're talking about who a person is having sex with. And if announcing it is how you legitimize it then again as I said there's a problem somewhere. A serious disconnect. Just saying.

thanks thanks thanks!!!