So if this doesn't belong here, I'm sorry, but I could really use some advice and insight.

I've been talking to a woman who unfortunately lives in a different country, I'm definitely in love with her, but every time I'm affectionate, she completely ignores it, I asked her if I make her uncomfortable with my affection and she says no, she said she doesn't love me yet but is really starting to,which is completely fine, she can take as long as she needs to figure things out but lately she has been very distant and I've only been getting like 2 messages a day, I can see the writing on the wall, I'm not stupid but what I'm trying to ask i guess is...am I stupid, crazy, pathetic or broken for being willing to put myself though this day after day just because im so lonely? we will never see each other in our lives, and yet my heart still hurts.. and I feel I'm the pathetic and stupid one...is that true?