i just dont understand
everything happens for a reason
but why this?
you tell me that you love me
your say that you miss me
yet you dont speak to me
dont make it seem like i am truely the one for you
i am fighting myself every day to not think about it
the more i fight
the more it burns
like an inferno grasping my heart
you have become me
everytime i open my eyes i long to see you
hear your voice or simply read your words
still the emptiness continues.....
gone for what seems like decades
unknowing of your return or where abouts...
patience is a lesson learned
i have defeated that task time and time again
and still i wait
wondering and thinking
am i waiting b/c it's going to be something magical
or could it be something i will long to forget.....
we have become distant strangers, that scares me the most
to have to meet u again
feel your touch for the first time
or look you in the eyes and say, "I Love You"

my fight is growing weak
my will to keep holding on is fading
but i remind myself how much u really mean to me
and that sudden urge to call you is faint
i dont know if u will answer
when u dont i am devistated...
the days of silence pass slowly
will you reach out for me tomorrow
or will i encounter another day of emptiness



this is simple actually....all i want is someone to show me that they "love me" as much as they say they do....some one who will treat me like i should be treated.....

Everyone wants to be loved truly and unconditionally. Unfortunately there are allot of BROKEN people out there who don't know what love is or have their own concept of what it is.Some people live in a fantasy world though. They meet someone and they build this elaborate fantasy around that person then when the person and relationship does not live up to or match that fantasy they get all freaked out and destroy the relationship because they are upset that the fantasy was not fulfilled.I believe that there is someone for everyone I think the key is DO NOT settle or accept anyone's bad behavior hoping it will get better.