How does one explain their best friend?
The times spent and their first meeting.
I will try here to help you folks feel this, and our friendships.
And what all can be felt and experienced through this site.
Its a bit extra long as I am going to place it all in a dairy of my time on here...sorry,,,,I have never wrote this much for anyone.
Till,Now..

I had joined many Internet sites when I first became single over three years ago.
Then one day I received an email, asking me to check-out Just-say-hi, it was described as a friends/singles site.
So I went and looked at it and joined.
I had never as yet, been on a computer or on the Internet for pleasure or relaxation.
I had only been on it for my work, as I found truck loads there.
Going through their format and typing in all my personal stuff about me..I called myself
IAM, and went and bought a small Internet cam to take a pic and post it to my profile.
To me, it seemed OK, and the pic's were cool.
Yet, no-one was emailing me or talking to me if I posted some in their forums.
I was on it for about an hour then, a couple of days.
then two weeks passed before I tried to go back on to it.
I was denied access as I had forgot my pass-word. The screen said that my pass-word was being sent to my E-mail account.
WELL,,,it wasn't in my E-mail box??
Then I remembered that I had gave it the wrong E-mail account, I gave them an older one that I had just let it go.
So every time I tried,,it sent it (password) to a dead email account...
As I didn't know what else to do, I opened
up a New account and tried to show my screen name as IAM,,but it said "That screen name already exists, PLEASE use a different name".

So I added 4U to the end of it, as I thought OK, thats catchy,lol.
I was now IAM4U, and put up the same pic's as I had them already down-loaded to the computer.
Still, no-one noticed me, nobody, laughed at my humor in the posts, I was here...
But it was like I was invisible to be seen?
Thinking I must be doing something wrong?
Or, something I need to add to me..
The idea hit me, to go and look and review the ones on here who were NOTICED and talked to by everyone, especially the men who attracted the ladies..
Going over old Threads in many different forums, I noticed that the ladies were ALL talking to about three main guys.
After looking at them men's profiles and their pic's in them.
I caught it!!!
One guy had a black leather jacket on and no-shirt under it.
One had a short sleeved shirt on with a pack of smokes rolled-up under his right arm sleeve.
The last one had no-shirt on, bare chested and a revolver in his hand, HE had all the ladies talking and laughing with him in EVERY forum...
It was the bad-guy-looks, that seemed to attract the women here.
Thinking and looking at my face in a mirror.
Wondering, what can I do, I am not a young man no-more.
I am not buffed, or a hot-looking man.
I am just me, relaxed, simple and average.
through my thoughts I had remembered when I use to work-out and where a bandanna, everyone saw me as a biker dude.
Theres my focus,,,take a pic with a tank-top on and wear a bandanna.
Using that new cam and experimenting with many different angles and shots.
I found one that made me appear to resemble, "Hulk Hogan"...lol.
So I posted it right away, and jumped in many forums so as to be SEEN with that new pic,,,and WOW....
EVERYONE said HI,,,Hello, WELCOME,,and I started to be read and heard here.
Many made conversation, with "hey", 'I love the bad-boy look', or 'cool pic man', some just said I looked hot..
I was living on here and talking to everyone.
Friends requests coming at me three, four times a day..
As I was talking and joking in all the forums, acting funny and silly.
Yet ALWAYS being my REAL self and telling everyone that THEY need to just be REAL on here..
I welcomed EVERY new person on here.
The site back then only had about a hundred
people on it, and the closet PERSON to me was-like four hundred miles away.
So dating was NOT an issue.
I found my self acting as helper/moderator
because the site had no-one at that seat,,
and everyone could cuss, slang, say ANYTHING to another member in the forums.
Many weekends some jerk would come on here,and start bashing some innocent person.
THEY would email me or run to the post I was in to let me know I was needed.
I would go see the jerk and see what he was saying, then JUMP-IN and start cussing him out, in the SAME fashion HE WAS DOING to someone there...lol
After a couple of hours trailing all his moves to other posts and forums, they would other concede to being NICE, or LEAVE.
That was me then on here..a hero to many and respected by all, always ending any phrase I typed with, Peace, Love and Be Real..

The forums only had about fifty different poster's posting in the them.
And their gender was about the same mix..
In the forums, we had regulars who had a flare for comic relief, I was one of them.
We would joke all day and night, with one of the posters, asking some REAL advice as to a question they posted.
We would all write in give them our answer's
and see how they liked them..
Over-and-over everyday, this was Just-Say-Hi.
By now I had about forty friends on the site.
Almost all, from the forums..
One night here, I received a Email from a lady
Asking me,
IAM4U, I am writing you to ask you a question. I have read you in the forums and I think your a very smart man and very compassionate to everyone here.
I also have read you to say "your not attracted to big women'.
I am an ugly fat girl, and was just wanting to know if you would be my pen-pal?
I thought ,ahhh, how could anyone say NO to this?
So I looked to read her profile, and she ran no-pics. But her profile showed her heart as well as her message to me.
So I wrote her back and accepted her invitation to be pen-pals.
We started exchanging emails once or twice a week.
Then after about one month, we were writing everyday. As she typed for her work, I didn't, lol, so as she would write me a book, hell, all I had to give her back.
Was a small paragraph...
I explained to her she typed like super-woman
and she laughed and said her typing speed was about 180 wpm,,,I laughed and said mine was about two words per minute,lol.
She started telling me she had left a very abusive marriage,where he would punch her, with his fists and if she fell down.
He would kick her with his foot..
As I read this my eyes filled with tears, and I would have to compose myself and go on.
She told me he had died many years ago, and she had been single and TRYING to find-out what normal was, as she suffered depression, and panic attacks and fear of most men NOW.
She also said I was the first and only man she had wrote to on here back then.
I felt very humble as for her to see me, as a man she could try and write to..
We never talked at first anything about her looks, or her weight, just OUR lives and the friendship that was growing in us both.

We shared many personal experiences and talked about our kids and their lives.
It was about a year into our friendship and I had experienced two ladies on here who played me and my heart.
I was very up-set,and hurt.
As I felt 'thats it' I am going to deactivate and leave here.
My first thoughts was to let my friend know this, BEFORE anyone or the site members knew..
So I wrote her and told her I was leaving, I felt the lost in her typed words and knew she was the only one who my leaving would really effect.
So I told her not to worry and I gave her my personal cell number, and my email Addy.
She called me two days after I deactivated here,lol
WE now heard our first real voices of each other...she was again,,content that I was still just a phone-call away..
To that day, she had yet to make ANY replies or posts.
We had talked about her doing that, yet her fear would stop her.
Then one night, she called me to say,,"I DID IT", I'm like 'WHAT'? 'I POSTED A REPLY',
I said 'COOL', and she had told me all about her reply and how it dealt with abuse and how she just felt, she had to reply to it.
She was so excited and with giggles to,wink,
SHE was NOW,,a poster,,,,,
Her job gave her much information to help people with many different health issues.
And her own experiences of abuse, gave her MUCH insight to help ones who were going through that.
So SHE was becoming an official Miss Phil,lol
As I jokingly told her that,,as I had refereed to me as Dr. Phil in helping others on the site.
I was not gone from here very long, and reactivated my account after about two-weeks,lol I couldn't stay away..
All this time me and my friend refereed to one another as I was like her Brother, and I said she was like a sister I never knew I had,wink.
She had been taking care of her father at home with her, all this time.
And he passed away not long ago.
And right before her father passed she lost a brother. So it has been very difficult for her to stay her, and be strong.
I started a Prayer post for her when Both of them had passed away and the replies were arsom...so much love and Prayers for her and her loved ones passed..
I had a Granddaughter burned in a bomb-fire cook out, she was placed in the hospital for awhile and I had told my friend that she also lost her teddy in the fire,,,,well three days later.
My friend sent her a new teddy, I took it to her as soon as it arrived. My Granddaughter was three years old, she LOVED -IT..
And I told my friend how my granddaughter's eyes just filled with light as she held it in her arms,,,it was a very real moment there.
I thanked her many times,,and all my friend could say was, she was just happy that my granddaughter was going to be OK..
We shared our happy times and our sad times weekly..
My friend has a great memory,lol
She knew my Birthday was coming up, two years ago, and she never was told my Addy,But on my fiftieth Birthday I received a box from her......
She sent me a card and a smaller little box, in it was a Saint Christopher's medallion.
I had told her a personal story about me when I was in my twenties, and I had ALWAYS wore one (even though not a Catholic).
Until my first wife and I had filed for a divorce, in that same month, before we were divorced, I had slept with a woman,,and later discovered my necklace,,,GONE?
no-where in my motel room to be found.
I told her, I thought GOD was showing me I was wrong..for sleeping with that woman?
Well here it was six months later and my birthday,,,SHE REMEMBERED that!!!
I called her,after opening that box.
And told her I was so grateful for receiving it,,,and for her to remember that story..
She was so happy I liked it ,,as she felt on pins and needles that I might not have,,
To this day, I have NEVER removed it from my neck, it LIVES on me,lol.

For almost three years we have experienced a friendship formed and lived though an open compassion of honesty..
She became my Best friend, a long time ago on here..
She has made her mark through hundreds of friends she has helped and been on here for, I am so proud of her and all she has accomplished on here, and in her personal life.
This although very long write, is but a pebble of sand to all that SHE and I have shared through our three years of friendship.
here.
We have never met in person, and yet we know each other better than most brothers and sisters do.
As I felt I helped her to find the woman within her,she helped me, to find ME.

My friend has no name here as yet, because I wanted her to be surprised by this write,lol
And I will allow her to post and be known, ONLY if she deems fit to have this all in forum?
Its all been said by her, at some time while she was helping another on here, in posts..
This is being written NOW, because I am SO happy for her today..
She has a man in her life that she is very close with, and I am just completely busting inside for their happiness to continue and grow even stronger...
I can't say that their live happily ever-after, as no-one knows that but GOD.
But I can say, I will PRAY forever that it grows to that, and that they grow Grey together, lol..
All I know for damn sure is,
This lady is LIVING a REAL LOVE life,
her first as to be appreciated and loved..
and loving him back,,,
Ladies and Gentlemen,
THATS ALL ANY OF US COULD EVER WANT or NEED...

Little Missy, ya know you BOTH have my love and my Prayers forever.. Live long, love deep, and share your hearts, always...

HERES TO JSH,AND MINGLE2, for allowing me the HONOR of meeting someone as GREAT, and BEAUTIFUL AS "YOU"...XOXO

CHEERS
To Friendships

Very Nice Tribute, (((Terry)))!!

You are such a beautiful person T...What a wonderful tribute for your friend...May happiness and love bless her life, and may it also bless yours this 2010...

Thank you Terry for the beautiful tribute. Geezz, did it take you a week to type it??

You have been a very good friend to me over these years and I appreciate your friendship. Thanks so much for caring. I wish you the best in the new year. Take care.

I was hoping so much that You would like this. And yes, I was a tad bit long-winded here.
But as I feel YOU deserve a write fit for, The Queen you have been here on this site.
And in my heart, as my Friend.

May this New Year also be one of the best you have ever LIVED...

If ya ever need me,,,just ring....and Tell that man next to you,
HE HAS A QUEEN...wink,love and hugs to you both, and may
GOD GUIDE YOU BOTH ALWAYS....

a beautiful and desired friendship..so encouraging..so humbling..thank you both for being vulnerable to us..to me..

Thank you ainjel,,she has been the bestfriend anyone could
have on here or in life...

T, I am thrilled for your friendship with this oh so special lady,and even more thrilled that I also know you as a friend.To those whom God have blessed by you crossing their paths know the wonderful person behind the laughs,giggles and the *winks*

I have been subjected to your *stand up for the underdog* routine when you gallantly rode your charger to my rescue, incensed by the actions of someone towards me, you have also done the same for others.

Psst! I'll let you into a little secret..... Most of the guys hated you with a passion! You have something they have no idea of how to express;that of compassion for another human being. Yeah, let them keep their bare chested photos on their profiles, that all it is; a bare chested photograph!(except for s1ow) You didn't have to bare your chest to show that you are a man of true integrity, with a heart as big as that old rig you drive AND made of pure gold too.

So, when I read your testimony for your friend, I had to put my two pennies worth in and let everyone know a little about the man behind the bandana..................... I love you T-man.Wink.

And for Marie, so steadfast and true ........

Thank you agrant,,she is a pretty cool lady,
and she is a talker like me,,

Ahhhh,geee Bonny,,,,this was sweet,,,and I love the LOVE,,
wink,, But you gave me a great excuse here for any Department of Transpotations Officer who might ever say I was over-weight,,,
I can NOW tell him,,,its because of the size of my heart..


I'm sure HE will except THAT.. Thanks so Much...

T, there is no scale that could tot up the amount of pounds your heart weighs.

And thank you Sadie for expressing your joy and warmth for us and our friendships.

COME-ON FOLKS,,,,who knows Marie55,???????

Give her a big HELLO!!!!!!!She's very HAPPY!!!!!

It's nice to see this kind of friendship develop between two of my favorite people here!

What a lovely tribute to Marie. I know she has touched the lives of many here. Just shows you how you truly can find some amazing friends even though they may not be close to you in miles.

That is such a blessing.((T))

Real friendships, are so wonderful.They do make the heart smile.

The few,Real friends,I have made on here...You all are so special to me.

Well done and YEYYYYYY Congrats, Marie. Ditto what T-man said on the well wishes!

Congrats Marie!!!!! From all T has told me (nothing personal, just how he feels about you) you're one hell of a woman!!


WOOHOO!!!! You go T, this ROCKS and so do you!!!!!


LOVE YA BROTHER MAN!!!!!