sitting here thinking about everything i've lost and how empty i feel and drinking to watch the room spin...wishing my wishes would come true just once.....

I've done that so many times hoping that it would work..that i've given up because I realize..it never will!

i'm not expecting it to do much else than get me drunk enough to forget i'm miserable....

Im like that all the time but maybe its best to be thankful for what you do have and not worry about what you dont Ive lost everything this year so I know how you feel man but dont let it get you down if you cant think over your depression then it will swallow you.

ahhh but you never truly forget..because at the time you begin to sober up..it hits ya again...I've been there!

good luck to you josh...but just remember drinking like that dont help it just makes things seem worse..hugggsss to ya....

here have a flower and a smile and know that I hope you soon feel better!

i'm a 21 year old widower....well, not technically, when she died we had 6 days till our wedding, so as far as i'm concerned, she was my wife....i've just never been able to move on from it....especially around the holidays

God sees you dude, He knows you're hurting. I still get bummed over all I've lost in life. the only way i get by is by concentrating on someone elses hurt and helping, it allows Gods love to flow instead of the blocked wall that causes stagnation in your heart.

Being self focused was the first bummer man ever felt. Adam was so non self focused that he didn't even know he was naked. Then "BAM" gods spirit was gone and Adam looked down and said, "holy crap what's that".

I am sorry for ya, that has to be rough..I am not even going to pretend I know how ya feel, But I am sure she sees your pain and I bet her heart aches for you and with you..Keep your head up, I bet she would hate to see you this way..

so sorry for your loss.
i like to think that every time you think of someone that has passed away...that is when they are looking at you...with love.

well, at least drinking will keep me from crying

Drinking when you are depressed almost never helps. The secret is drinking better booze. Beer or cheap stuff just makes you feel more depressed. However, if you drink a nice $100 bottle of wine, or a few glasses of Macallan 18 or Glenmorangie 18 scotch you'll actually feel better. You won't have near the hang over tomorrow either.
After drinking good stuff you tend to remember better that actually things aren't really that bad. You aren't in Iraq getting shot at, you didn't just learn you have 24 hours to live, and you aren't in prison.
Have a nice glass of scotch and relax, better days could be starting tomorrow.

Cheers

Edit after reading more info:
Sorry for your loss. But seriously, better days are ahead. Have a drink tonight, you deserve it, but don't drive. Things will get better though.

i do know how you feel i'v lost alot that was close to me
you hear it all the time and you don't think it can happen to
you. am 46 i have lost 32 of my famly in 46 year's and 18 friend's it dosen't get any easyer you just got to keep
going if you need a friend am here for you.......

i never drink and drive.....and i don't get hangovers

Drinking will help...maybe...for a little while....but it will become boring and the results very predictable...Life is unpredictable .....
Drink up! do what you need to...for now.

but.....taking a depressant when your depressed....oh never mind.

my best friend was murdered at the age of 23....took me several quarts of vodka......20 years later I still get sad about it...

one that i lost was to someone that was drinking
and driveing my brother was only 16 so it's ggod you don't..

i have to say, being able to come here and KNOW there's people that genuinely care does make me feel better....i've gone from depressed to a good buzz but in a fairly good mood, and i wanna say i do love you all (surrogately....of course) but THANK YOU for listening

Alcohol is a depressant and is only a temporary fix. I really wish you would go to your doctor and talk to them about it. I do believe some counseling would help you immensely. There are groups just for grief counseling, lots of people dealing with similar issues and it would help you more than you can imagine to talk to someone about it and share your grief and feelings. Most hospitals have social workers, and they have a list of the groups available or they are listed in the newspaper. Community mental health centers have lists of groups also. I really do believe it would help you feel so much better to talk to someone, to get through your hurt and deal with your pain. I know you miss her, she would not want you suffering this way, she would want you to get some help and feel better. I wish you would check into one of these avenues, I really do believe you would feel so much better. Take care of yourself. She would want you happy, not hurting every day.

I totally agree with Marie.