At times I miss Bailey tremendously. Ï keep missing my mate, my familiar. Sometimes I think I hear or see him because I'm still expecting that.
Energetically it's different. I've had something not so pleasant shortly after his passing. Thank goodness that has gone again. Took about 2 weeks though! Made me realise just how much Bailey protected me and our home. I know cats are very very protective, but hadn't realised Bailey had taken on this 'work', hihi.
I thought of smudging, but in this case wasn't sure it was a smart thing to do. It really didn't feel too pleasant and sometimes smudging has the adverse effect. I didn't feel strong enough, which is also what it hinges on.

And Nila is also different as it's different for her too. She now has to deal with 'invading' strange cats in the garden by herself and I can tell that isn't always easy. She doesn't go out as much anymore because of it, and when indoors she's constantly running from window to window to keep an eye on these neighbour cats that walk through the front yard towards the back.
She's a small cat, the other day there were 2 ginger cats in my garden, larger cats as well. No matter how fiery she can be, she cannot take on 2 larger ginger cats.
I happened to see it so I went out, but I am not there all the time.
Bailey didn't necessarily chase invaders away, although I'm not certain, but for Nila still different to have a fellow friendly cat around in the garden.

I've been thinking maybe I should get another one, but not sure. There's always a risk it doesn't work between the 2 cats... But I do have a feeling that Nila would be happier with a fella cat in the home like before.

It's weird now that he's gone.
And today emotional about it, having gone through so many photos...

To me one of the hardest things I have ever had to go through beyond loosing a Parent/ grand parent is loosing a fur buddy..

They are not in this world long but yet they love those that take care of them and give them a little loving.

Myself I'm a dog lover yes I have had cats at one time never inside.. But well they were more strays they only came home to eat and get a little attention and off they went..

My fur baby is a Cocker Spaniel, she just turned 16 years old, I have had her since 2007 which the vet said she was from 7-12 months old at the time she was a resue. From day one she has walked beside me anytime we were in the house or even in the backyard.. She would follow me when I mowed the yard with the self propelled mower.. lol With the riding mower she sits between my feet since I control the mower with my hands I cross my legs around her so she is locked in..

As far as getting another cat for Nila, when animals are use to having a companion many times it is best to find them one.. If possible let her pick. When you find one that you are interested in ask if you can bring Nila.. I'm sure she will let you know if they are a good pick or not.. maybe even a younger one she will be able to be like a mother it.

It all depends on what they are use to. Like mine she is use to being alone when I'm gone.. When I'm home she is always near Yeppiers even sleeps with me.. This one when it comes that time is gonna hurt bad.

Yes, some animals touch you deeper than others, that's for sure!
I've had to let go of Bailey's brother, Bramble, last year as it didn't work out with Nila and I ended up with 3 very stressed cats.
In the end the shelter phoned me a nr of times as they began to think that something inside his head wasn't quite right, something I'd been thinking myself for years. They couldn't put him up for a new home because of how he behaved. I think in the end they let him make his transition, something they only ever do when there is no other choice.
That saddens me, but nowhere near the same as having to let my Bailey go.

Cocker spaniels are great animals!! I love 'em! Had one in the past when I was still married. They're such good dogs, well-behaved, always happy to see you. Sweet li'l doggies :) He was a 3 colour male cocker. I used to cut his hair myself, that's how I learnt to cut hair, haha. I mean, if you can cut a cocker's fur properly you can also do a man's haircut, haha
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Ifever I was to get a dog again it'd be a cocker spaniel!

And thank you for what you say about getting another cat! That helps! It's so difficult at times to make decisions by yourself, to not be able to discuss things with a partner. You know, the "What do you think?" thing.
It would be great if Nila could choose but then I'd have to take her in the basket by car, meaning she's stressed out as no cat likes that.

I will start looking around to see if there are kittens though :) It lightened my heart to read your words, so that means it's good for me too.
And it's not to replace Bailey. He can never ever be replaced. I just never liked having just 1 cat, and I fear that if I wait long Nila will be too used to being alone. In that sense I think the risk of it not working out with her will be much bigger the longer I wait...